I Realized I Was the Cheating Bastard in a Hentai Manga only after I Had Already Stolen the Heroine - 46-47

Chapter 46: I Wish I Could Do Something About It…

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~Rui Yamada’s POV~

In the morning, Shuu-nii made breakfast for me. Since he was making his own lunchbox anyway, he also made lunch for me. Even though I really was just being a burden, he didn’t show the slightest unpleasant look—he was such a wonderful man.

Last night, it had just been me and Shuu-nii, but I had been able to sleep peacefully without worry.

After Shuu-nii left for school, I was alone. Dad had also brought me my smartphone, so when I contacted my school friends to let them know I’d be taking a few days off, I suddenly had too much free time.

I couldn’t do laundry, so I thought at least I should clean the house. But Shuu-nii’s house was unbelievably spotless… He must usually clean and take care of things regularly… Really, he was completely different from how he looked.

I studied a little, watched some videos on my phone, and ate the lunch Shuu-nii had made for me. After that, I truly had nothing left to do. I passed the time watching TV, but… Being alone was lonely…

At times like this, before, I would’ve been with Kou-nii and…

“Ah, wait…?”

Ah, no… This is bad…

The moment I remembered Kou-nii—that man—my body began to tremble… The scene from that time rose up in my mind…

“Hah…! Hah…! Hah…!”

My breathing grew rough… The shaking wouldn’t stop…!

Scary… scary, scary, scary…!

With trembling hands, I sent a message to Shuu-nii. I properly told him that being alone scared me and made my body shake. I was troubling him again, but probably with Shuu-nii, not contacting him would only make him worry more. We had only known each other for a few days, but I understood he was that kind of person.

While I was shivering under the futon, I heard the sound of the front door opening.

“Rui!”

I heard Shuu-nii’s voice. Just that alone eased my trembling a little. When I saw him, I ran to hug him. 

“Sorry, Shuu-nii… When I was alone, the scene from that time came back to me…”

“My bad, I really shouldn’t have left you alone. You did well contacting me—you were brave.”

Shuu-nii hugged me back and stroked my head. When I looked closely, he was out of breath. He must have run here with all his might. As he held me, the trembling of my body stopped.

“Thank you, Shuu-nii. I’m okay now. Ughhh! I didn’t mean to remember, but it just came back on its own! Such a pain! This is such a huge pain!”

“I’m glad. Looks like you’ve regained some energy. But yeah, this really is troublesome… It’s probably turned into trauma.”

So this was what trauma was like… I hated it…

“What about Kyou-nee?”

“I decided to let Kyouko just spend the day at school until dismissal time. I left my bag behind, so I asked her to take care of that too.”

“Kyou-nee must’ve wanted to be with you too… I need to apologize to her as well…”

“Don’t let it weigh on you. Kyouko would definitely say you don’t have to apologize.”

Even though Shuu-nii said that, I still felt bad, so I sent Kyou-nee a message. Her reply came right away.

『Don’t worry about it! Just cling to Shuuya as much as you can!』

Both of them are so kind…

When night came, Kyou-nee also came over. She hugged me too.

The three of us ate dinner together, and the conversation turned to what to do from now on. They both said they would take time off from school to stay with me, but I felt way too guilty and refused. Still, neither of them gave in, and in the end, they decided they would take turns—one of them would take the day off every other day to be with me.

I had to find some way to repay the two of them too…

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Chapter 47: I Want to Change, I Want to Be Changed

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~Rui Yamada’s POV~

The next day, Kyou-nee stayed with me.  She helped me study, cooked meals, and even taught me how to clean.  It was so much more fun than in the past.  Kyou-nee herself seemed more lively than she used to be.

I see, it’s because she wasn’t doing these things out of obligation anymore, but because she wanted to. That’s why she looked so happy.

It really hit me again—she truly found someone good to be with. 

“Hey, Rui-chan?”

While we were spending time  like that, Kyou-nee asked me gently.

“Rui-chan, you’re not thinking that you have to repay Shuuya or me somehow, are you?”

…I was startled.  How did she know?

“Y-yeah… Because I’ve caused you so much trouble, and you’ve both helped me so much…”

“I knew it. You see, that way of thinking isn’t good.  If you try to repay debts, you’ll end up like me.”

…My breath caught. Right. Kyou-nee had tried to repay our parents—no, the whole Yamada family—and it only brought her suffering…

“Of course, I’m grateful that you want to do something for us.  But if you’re going to, don’t do it as repayment.  I want you to do it of your own will, Rui-chan.”

“My… My own will?”

“Exactly. The reason I do things for Shuuya, and the reason Shuuya does things for me—it’s all because we choose to.  I want Shuuya to be happy.  I want him to smile.  That way, I can be happy too.  And I’m sure—no, absolutely sure—Shuuya feels the same way.”

Her face as she said that was filled with genuine happiness.

“So, Rui-chan, if you ever do something, I want you to do it because you truly want to, okay?”

“Yeah… I understand.  But, I do want to express my gratitude.  Thank you, Kyou-nee.”

“Ehehe ♪ You’re welcome ♪”

While we were having that conversation, Shuu-nii came home. When it was time to eat, I helped take out the plates and cleaned up afterward. It wasn’t out of guilt, or as a way to repay them.  I just wanted to share housework with the two of them. That was the only reason I helped.

Maybe Kyou-nee understood that too—she smiled at me like she was watching over me. After Kyou-nee left, I went to bed with Shuu-nii.

…Maybe because I had regained some emotional stability, I suddenly became aware of the fact that I was being held by a man while I slept, and my heart started racing.

Would he… Would he do something perverted to me?

“!!!”

“Oh, what’s wrong? You okay?”

“Y-yeah… Um. Just now, I thought about something perverted… And then, that man’s disgusting face came to mind…”

The instant that face flashed across my mind, I instinctively clung to Shuu-nii.

“I see… So the trauma even reaches into things like that…”

Ugh, I hate it… To think I’ll be haunted like this forever…

“…Hey, Shuu-nii. You have someone besides Kyou-nee that you’re seeing, right?”

“Hm? Ahh… So your big brother showed you that picture, huh. I’ll say this clearly—I’m only dating Kyouko.”

“Really?”

“Well, I’m not dating them, but I do have people I’m… Involved with in that way.  And Kyouko knows about it. In fact, they get along pretty well.”

“Oh, yeah. I kind of figured. I thought—she knows, and still chooses to be with you. …Hey, could you… Do something perverted with me too?”

Shuu-nii looked shocked.

“…Are you serious?”

“Yeah… You see, when I’m touching Shuu-nii, I feel safe. So I thought maybe I could overwrite the bad memories with you. …Of course, only if you don’t mind, Shuu-nii…”

“…Well, to answer directly, I don’t mind. But—you need to talk to Kyouko first. I don’t want to do anything she wouldn’t accept.”

His words snapped me back to my senses. …Once again, I almost ended up hurting Kyou-nee.

“You’re right… I understand. I’ll ask Kyou-nee about it.”

“And you’ll also have to tell your parents. They trusted me enough to let me take care of you. I don’t want to betray that trust.”

Shuu-nii was thinking about so much… And here I was, only thinking about myself again…

“…I’ll talk to my mom and dad myself.”

“…I can explain it to them if you’d like.”

“No… This is my selfish request. At the very least, I need to do that part myself. Otherwise, I’d just be relying on you too much.”

“I see. Alright then—good luck.”

“Yeah, I’ll do my best!”

That night, Shuu-nii hugged me tight and I fell asleep in his arms. It made me feel safe again, but once the thought crossed my mind, I couldn’t help but feel aroused too~ ♡

The next morning was a day off, so Kyou-nee came over early. …And for some reason, she brought along a woman with breasts even bigger than hers.

…Who is that??

“U-um… Kyou-nee? Who might this person be?”

“Hehehe, Rui-chan. I’m guessing you wanted Shuuya to do something perverted with you, right?”

“!?”

How did she know!? I glanced at Shuu-nii, wondering if he had told her, but he looked just as shocked as I was.

“I’m surprised. I was going to bring that up today myself.  How did you figure it out?”

“Woman’s intuition, I guess?”

“With intuition that sharp, you practically have ESP…”

“Come to think of it, Kyouko noticed when I had feelings for Shuuya too. She really might be psychic…”

The busty woman joined the conversation.

Seriously… Who is she?

“Um… And you are…?”

“Oh, right, I forgot to introduce myself. I’m Kanae Ryuugasaki. Shuuya and Kyouko have been good friends of mine. I hear you’re Yamada’s little sister…?”

“Ah, yes. My name is Rui Yamada. Nice…? To meet…? You…?”

“Alright! Now that introductions are out of the way, let me explain why I brought Kanae here!”

Clap!

 Kyou-nee clapped her hands to draw attention to her.

“You see, Rui-chan, you were thinking about having Shuuya hold you, weren’t you?”

“Y-yeah… But only if you’d allow it, Kyou-nee…”

“Of course! I allow it!”

…Wait, it’s that easy? Is it really okay to be so casual about it?

“But, no matter what happens, I won’t give up my place as Shuuya’s girlfriend. That’s more important to me than anything.”

She said that with a serious look.

“…Yeah. I understand that. I don’t want to take that from you. I want you to be happy too. Because we’ve hurt you before, I want you to be rewarded going forward.”

“And even knowing that, you still want Shuuya to hold you?”

“…Yes. Because I love Shuu-nii too. I want him to hold me, like the woman in that picture on that man’s phone.”

“…By the way, I’m in the same kind of relationship. Shuuya loves me as well. Of course, I’m not his girlfriend.”

“!?”

Today is just full of shocks…

“So Rui-chan, in a lot of ways, Kanae is your senpai ♪ Since you already know about Yūka-san from the picture too, I hope you’ll get along with everyone. It’d make me happy if you could.”

“Y-yeah! I’ll do my best!”

“Alright… Now that we have Kyouko’s permission, the only ones left are your parents. What do you want to do? Go see them now?”

“…No, I’ll call them. I don’t want to go back to that house while he’s still there, and Dad and Mom are probably busy anyway. I’ll try calling them now.”

“Got it. Good luck. Honestly, I’m looking forward to holding you.”

“Y-yeah! I’ll do my best ♡”

After that, I called Mom and explained that I wanted Shuu-nii to hold me. Kyou-nee also got on the phone to help convince them. Then Shuu-nii spoke with them as well.

Ugh… in the end, I relied on the two of them again…But Mom and Dad accepted it. They said it was far better than me ending up unable to trust men because of that man. With that, there was nothing left to hold me back.

Shuu-nii is going to hold me ♡

“…So anyway, why was I called here again?”

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