I Hope You’re Still Alive When Tomorrow Comes - 1
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Click HereChapter 1: The Day I Wanted to Die
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“….I want to die.”
The words slipped out of my mouth when I returned to the station. I was unsteady on my feet and practically collapsed onto the bench on the platform.
In my mind, the scene I had just witnessed kept swirling around.
The person I saw was definitely Nanami. There was no mistaking it. She was the person that had been by my side ever since I could remember. Someone more precious to me than anyone else, my childhood friend.
I was leaving through the school gate after school when I saw her.
She was walking a few meters ahead, together with a guy I didn’t know. The guy was wearing the same high school uniform as me so he must be her classmate.
At that moment, I was thinking of catching up with them. I didn’t think about anything much. My pace naturally quickened. Whether they were just friends or whatever, I just didn’t like the idea of Nanami walking side by side with a guy alone. I merely only wanted to meddle in between them.
But halfway through, I was stopped on my tracks.
Suddenly, they held hands together. At first, I thought the two of them were heading toward the train station, but they actually walked past the station. They continued on toward the shopping district with their hands firmly clasped together.
While maintaining a certain distance, I followed them.
With all of my might, I desperately pushed away all the unpleasant thoughts swirling in my mind.
Eventually, the two of them entered a small park, just on the outskirts of the town. They sat down on a bench.
To avoid being noticed by them, I hid in the shadow of the restroom, watching them from a distance.
I didn’t know how much time had passed. They kept chatting for a while until suddenly, they moved.
The guy’s right hand touched Nanami’s cheek. He leaned closer to her. His hand lightly brushed the hair falling over Nanami’s cheek.
Within that split second, I saw the side profile of Nanami closing her eyes in response to his touch.
By the time I realized it, I was already turning on my heel, running away.
What was that just now?? What was that…?
I couldn’t comprehend it. After all, that girl was Nanami. Someone who had been with me since birth. My lifelong childhood friend.
She was timid, introverted and to top it all off, she had a weak body. Back when we were still in kindergarten, she couldn’t even run around and play outside like other children. I thought I shouldn’t leave her alone.
These thoughts prolly born out of my childish mind.
I remembered I endured my desire to play outside. I always played indoors with her. When someone bullied Nanami, I would rush over to her rescue and get angry on her behalf.
Ever since I could remember, being with her, protecting her, everything had become a normal part of my everyday life. I thought protecting Nanami was my given duty.
Even when we entered the same elementary school, even when we moved on to junior high, that aspect of me didn’t change. I often took Nanami to the health office when she was feeling sick. I carried her home when she had anemia on our way back from school.
“I’m so glad Kan-chan is here.”
Nanami would say that everytime I helped her.
Over and over again.
I thought Nanami needed me. I felt that I had to protect her. This frail and helpless girl… I thought I had to be the one to be by her side.
Hence why when it was time to choose my high school, I deliberately lowered my standard without any hesitation. I did all of that just so I could go to the same high school as her. For me, doing something like that was normal. I never thought of it as strange.
At that time, Nanami also said…
“I’m so glad. I feel so safe as long as Kan-chan is with me.”
And yet..
“Aaahh…”‘
A feeble-sounding voice escaped my throat.
By the time I knew it, I was back at the nearest station from our high school. I slumped onto a bench.
Aaah… Just what is this…
“….I want to die.”
I whispered under my breath, staring at nothing. And then, the bell in the station chimed, signaling the arrival of a train.
An announcement could be heard. A train was coming on platform number three. Without thinking much, I raised my head and gazed at the tracks.
A blue train was approaching.
Maybe I should get on that train.
I thought to myself. After all, if I went home while feeling like this, I probably would feel even more miserable. The thoughts of dying would intensify.
Maybe I can go around the town to clear up my mind.
I thought to myself as I got up from the bench.
“STOP!!”
A firm and loud voice echoed as someone swiftly slid into my field of vision.
Shocked, I took a moment to catch my breath.
The girl stared straight into my eyes. She thrusted her face close to mine.
“Don’t die! You can’t die! Absolutely not! I won’t let you die even if you want to die!! I won’t let you!!”
She shouted desperately with her face only an inch away from me.
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T/N: New novel! Please be kind (●’◡’●)