I Got Reincarnated Into a Game I Was a Top-Ranker in and I Became the Leader of a Villain Group That Will Destroy This Shitty Country - 4

Chapter 4: First Touch of Kindness ~ Number 5014’s POV

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Even someone like me had a mother. However, she was so cruel that I wasn’t even sure if someone like her could be considered as a parent. She would hit me, kick me, pull my hair and scratch my skin whenever she could. Of course, her actions were understandable. Somewhat. After all, there was a demon dwelling within my body. 

“You hate her, don’t you? You want to kill that woman, right? Just once. Just once is all it takes. Tell me to come out and you will feel so much better, you know?”

Shut up.

I didn’t know when the demon had entered my body. According to that person, it seemed the demon was already within me since I was born. That must be true. After all, the demon had been whispering in the back of my mind for all I could remember. 

Besides, it seemed the magic power I was born with was part of black magic, a branch of magic ruled by the demons. That must be why the demon’s power was compatible with me, because I possessed an immense amount of black magic power… Also, according to that person’s explanation, I was already cursed from the moment I was born. 

The day after she told me all of this, my mother hanged herself. 

Mom?

“…….”

“She’s dead.”

Corpses couldn’t speak. No matter how much I called her, her eyes remained closed shut. Her mouth never moved an inch. 

Together with a sense of liberation from my mother’s death, I was finally alone. However, those who could see the demon within me shunned and despised me. They threw stones and eggs at me, hurling insult after insults at me. Fortunately, the orphanage in the slum took me in. But even there, I was always alone. 

Then, the caretaker of the orphanage died. I escaped from the orphanage with a certain destination in mind. 

Schwitz Detention Camp, the quickest place for orphaned children who had nowhere to return to die. 

A literal hell in the world where they conducted illegal human experiments. Over 50 children were said to be killed every day. I thought I would die when I arrived there. I thought I would finally be released from everything and be at peace. 

However, even after coming here, I was still alone. Everyone was afraid of me. None of the magicians dared to experiment on me. 

I wanted to die. I wanted to die. I kept wishing for death everyday. Otherwise, one day… I might succumb to the demon’s words. Because… The thoughts of killing started to sound hauntingly sweet to me. 

……Well, it’s fine I guess. 

However, I was slowly reaching my limit. The demon’s voice echoed in my head all day long to no end and since my body was overflowing with magic, I didn’t even understand the concept of fatigue… My body just kept moving through the motions… Endlessly…

I just wanted to feel comfortable. However, if I couldn’t find peace even in death, then… I didn’t have any other option. yes. I shall become the devil. I would become the devil and destroy everything, including this insane world that had forsaken me. 

Black mist swallowed my soul. Just one word. I just needed to say one word, but then…

“Drink this. You don’t have much to eat these past three days, right? You must be thirsty too, so this is for you.”

I… I met someone who changed my destiny. Someone who I would love for all eternity. 

For some reason, that boy was eerily concerned about me. Given I had a sharp sense, I could tell that this boy could see the demon dwelling within me more vividly than anyone else could. And yet, he didn’t change his attitude toward me. On the contrary, he approached me with more compassion and care than before.

“What’s your name?”

And so, I found myself asking him a menial question in return. Even though I might get betrayed by him, even though he might abandon me, I… Weak as I was, I asked him that question. 

The boy paused for a moment before he answered. 

“Number 5025.”

His answer made me feel disappointed. I guess he still couldn’t trust me. He still saw me as a monster. 

However, I was wrong. According to him, he had no memories of his past. He was so sincere, so genuine when he explained it to me that it was impossible for me to accuse him of lying. 

And above everything else…

“Then how about a bet?”

That word came in just within one week of knowing him and all doubts in my heart completely disappeared. I repeatedly told him that I wanted to die and yet, he refused to acknowledge my wish for death. If I survived, it would be his wind. He told me that he wouldn’t lose and that he would save me.

“……”

The first kindness I ever experienced in my whole life. The first warmth I ever felt. Something indescribable welled up from the depths of my heart, almost overwhelming. 

Before I knew it, my mouth was already moving on its own. 

“I will live for you.”

“I will live for you.”

I said it twice. I meant what I said. He was the only person to ever promise to save me. That alone was enough reason for me to give him everything I had. 

“…Why are you looking at me like that? Is there something on my face?”

“No, there’s nothing.”

Even so, if my existence ever became a danger to him, I would disappear from him. I was prepared to do that much. After all, there was no denying it. I was still a monster. He might get hurt just by being by my side. He might end up in danger. Just the mere thoughts of him in danger was enough to make chills run down my spine, enough to make me feel sick. 

I see. My heart already belongs to him. 

At that moment, I truly felt it with all of my core. I belonged to him. 

“Oi! What are you all sleeping for?! Wake up! Livestock like you lots don’t need sleep!”

Abad man entered the room where beds for children lined up at. His eyes scanned several of the children. Then, with an ugly smirk on his face, he snickered. 

“Now then, time to start picking our next test subjects.”

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