I Fell in Love with Someone I Shouldn't Have Fallen in Love with - Chapter 5

The Frustration of not Being Able to See Each Other

Ever since I heard about Souji’s plan to move out, I’ve been feeling restless.

Since entering high school, I haven’t had much time with Souji. Even during the Golden Week, we didn’t go out together once.

When I visit his room late at night, he’s either already asleep because he is exhausted from his part time job, or we exchange just a few words before I go back to my room.

Whenever I send a message to Souji-kun on my smartphone, he always takes a long time to reply to me, and the messages I receive are becoming shorter and shorter.

I have to do something, or else my relationship with Souji-kun will become even more strained before he leaves.

I’ve grown too comfortable living together in the same house with Souji-kun, so the thought of losing him makes me feel anxious and restless.

With these feelings in my heart, I can’t focus on anything.

Naturally, my school studies have been terrible lately, and I also performed terribly in my first midterm exams in high school.

Ughh…

I want to talk to Souji-kun…

I thought we would be together forever…

I can’t believe how much I miss seeing you, even though I’m not your girlfriend…

If Souji-kun really ends up leaving our house like this, I don’t think I’ll be able to bear it.

One day, after thinking about this all day long, feeling down, I let out a sigh during dinner.

“Onee-chan, you’ve been sighing so bitterly since a while ago, it’s making my food taste bad.”

Emi scolded me.

“…shut up, leave me alone.”

“If you want me to do so, stop sighing so bitterly with that gloomy look on your face.”

“…thank you for the food.”

I quickly return to my room, unable to muster the energy to retort Emi’s words.

After some time, Emi comes to my room.

As I’m getting fed up because of her words earlier, Emi starts to talk.

“Onee-chan, do you like Ando-senpai?”

“Hah?! What’s with the sudden question?”

“Well, you’ve been looking gloomy lately, and I thought it might be because of Ando-senpai. Since you two are in different high schools now and he started a part-time job, you don’t have as much time to hang out or chat secretly in his room. That is what has been bothering you lately, right?”

What Emi said is all true.

That’s why I can’t say anything in response.

“Yeah, as I thought so. But let me be frank, your feelings feel really heavy, you know? Just look at Senpai, isn’t it obvious? He is not interested in romance at all. Yet, you always surround him with your affection and your lovesick aura. Even a nice guy like Senpai would get overwhelmed if he’s constantly bothered, right?”

Emi’s words are shocking.

But when I think about it, I can see that she is right.

Like a further blow, Emi’s words struck right at my heart which is already anxious and restless from all of this.