I Don’t Want to Kiss Until We’re Married - Chapter 5

Lovers

After I left Manami’s house, I come back to my house.

I take of my shoes at the entrance and go to my room.

“Ah, Yuta. Welcome back.”

“Ayano…”

Ayano is lying on my bed, playing her phone.

Why is she in my room again today?

Well, it’s not like she can’t be here…

“Hah…”

I let out a big sigh.

Today, I broke up with Manami.

I still love Manami, but I can’t bring myself to continue dating her.

I can’t bear to hold myself back to kiss her until we’re married.

Why can’t I kiss her in the first place?

I still don’t get it.

Does she really love me?

Seeing me depressed, Ayano tilts her head.

“Did something happen between you and Manami-chan?”

“Well…”

“I knew it, something happened. Did you have a fight with her?”

“No, we didn’t have a fight.”

“Then, what happened?”

“We broke up.”

“Hmm, I see…eh? Huh? What!?”

Ayano exclaimed at my words.

She is so surprised that her mouth is wide open.

“Why did you break up with her…?”

“The truth is—”

I slowly explained to Ayano what happened today.

That Manami told me we should not kiss each other until we’re married.

That I was so pissed off her words.

That I told Manami I want to break up with her.

I told Ayano everything.

“I see…so you really broke up with Manami-chan.”

“Yeah…”

“Then, will you go out with me, Yuta?”

“Eh…? Ayano?”

“Yuta, will you be my boyfriend?”

“……”

“I will do anything for you. If you ever get hard again, I will help you with my mouth. Of course, you can do whatever you want with my body as well. Please, be my boyfriend, Yuta. I’ll be yours and only yours…”

I fall silent at Ayano’s words.

Ayano is incredibly cute, attractive, and easy to talk to.

She is the perfect girl.

She even helped me to ease my thing down there when it got hard.

If I go out with Ayano, I’m sure my life would be a lot of fun.

But I still love Manami.

Frankly, I love Manami more than Ayano.

Yes, the number one person in my heart is still Manami.

Is it okay to go out with Ayano in such a half-hearted state?

Damn it, what am I supposed to do?

Because I kept silent thinking about it for quite some time, Ayano becomes anxious.

“I knew it, you don’t want to go out with me, don’t you…?”

“That’s…not true.”

“Eh…? Really?”

“Yeah.”

When I say so, Ayano’s eyes sparkle.

Seeing her smiling happily, I can’t help but to smile as well.

Ayano is truly cute…

“Will you really be my boyfriend?”

“Yeah, I’d love to…but are you sure you want to go out with me? I mean, I’m sure you can date a much better guy than me, Ayano.”

“There is no a single better person in this world than you, Yuta.”

“…I see.”

“Yeah.”

Both me and Ayano went silent.

This feels awkward…

“Hey…”

Ayano suddenly calls me.

“W-What is it?”

“We’re lovers now, aren’t we?”

“Yeah, that’s right…we’re lovers now.”

“Then, is it okay for us to kiss?”

“Eh? Kiss…?”

“Yeah, we can’t?”

“No, I’d love to kiss you, Ayano. Then, shall we kiss?”

“Yeah.”

Ayano gets up from the bed and approaches me.

She walks up to me, stands on tip toes and embrace my lips. At the same time, I can feel a soft sensation of her lips.

As always, Ayano’s lips are very soft…

When I entwine my tongue with hers, Ayano seems surprised.

But she doesn’t seem to hate it.

We kiss each other passionately, entwining our tongues with each other’s.

Then after a while, we part our lips.

Ayano’s face is melting, she seems really pleased.

“Yuta…let’s do it.”

“Eh…? What do you mean?”

“I can’t hold myself back anymore. I want to be your and yours alone.”

“Are you sure you want to do this? I hear people say it hurts the first time.”

“Yeah, it’s okay. Hurt me a lot…make me your girl, Yuta…”

“Ayano…”

Ayano’s sweet words melts my brain, I can’t think straight anymore.

Unable to hold myself back anymore, I push Ayano down onto the bed.

Ayano seems surprised of my bold move.

But shortly after, Ayano hugs me and smiles sweetly.

“Yuta…”

“Ayano…”

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“Yuta…does it felt good?”

“Yeah, it felt incredible. Thank you, Ayano.”

I say so to her while patting her head.

Ayano squints her eyes like a kitten.

She seems very happy.

Today, I had sex with my girlfriend, Ayano.

I was so nervous from the start to the end because it was my first time.

It was Ayano’s first time as well.

The evidence is the red blood stain on the bed sheets.

When I saw the blood stain on my bed sheets, I realized that we really are lovers now.

However, is this really the right thing to do?

“Hey, Ayano.”

“Hmm? What is it…?”

“Why did you let me have sex with you?”

“It’s because…I love you, Yuta.”

“……”

“I want to be loved by the person I love. I want to make the person I love mine alone. That’s why I let Yuta to have sex with me…”

“Is that so…”

“Yeah…”

Ayano must really love me.

But what about me?

What do I think of Ayano?

Do I love her?

I feel safe when I’m near her, and I feel happy when she’s around me.

But I still get nervous when I’m around Manami.

My mind always goes blank whenever I see Manami, I’m still deeply in love with her.

Who do I love more, Manami or Ayano…?

Damn it, no matter how much I think about it, I still can’t get the answer.

No more…I don’t want to think about it anymore.

“Hey, Yuta.”

“Hmm? What is it?”

“Do you want to do it again?”

“Eh? Again…?”

“Yeah…you don’t want to?”

“Do you want me that badly?”

“Yeah, I want to do it a lot with the person I love…”

“…you’re very lewd, Ayano.”

“Ughh…”

Ayano’s face blushes in red at my words. It’s as if steam is coming out of her ears.

Ahh, she is truly cute.

Then, she stares up to me.

“Do you hate lewd girls?”

“No, I don’t hate it. Rather, I love it.”

“I love you too, Yuta!”

Once again, we made love on the bed