I Don’t Like Endings Where the Person who Cheats Gets Forgiven, so I Will not Forgive Her - Chapter 8-9

Unable to Understand Her Feelings

“You won’t have any homework today. Make sure to clean up your tables properly before going home. Well then, see you tomorrow.”

My homeroom teacher says so and leave the class.

Now then, I should head home too.

I feel really tired today.

It’s because Yukina has been constantly bothering me since this morning.

“Yukito, do you want something do drink? Do you want to go to the vending machine together?”

“……”

Or,

“Yukito, do you want to have lunch together? I’m so hungry.”

“……”

And,

“H-Hey, let’s go home together today, Yukito. I won’t hang out with my friends today.”

“……”

Not only that, Yukina also came to my seat every break time.

This is probably the most she has talked to me in the past few months.

Thinking about it now, my relationship with Yukina has become colder these past few months.

Perhaps, because I was so in love with her, I didn’t notice it.

Eri-san once said that love ruins people.

Now that I have been cheated on, I can’t help but agree with her.

When I was young, I once asked Eri-san why everyone falls in love.

After thinking about it for a while, Eri-san told me,

‘Love is something people engage in because without it, they wither in various aspects, which makes them even worse.’

‘So, even though love ruins people, not engaging in it would make them even worse?’

‘Yukito, no matter how much we try to understand the human heart, we can never truly understand it. I believe this is particularly evident in love. It might be difficult to understand now, but as you grow, I’m sure you will understand. Well, I know it’s not really convincing coming from me who doesn’t really care about love.’

I remember when Eri-san said so, she chuckled with a self-depreciating tone.

At that time, I didn’t understand what Eri-san meant by ‘love’, I had no idea what she was talking about.

But now that I think about it, I feel like I understand what she meant a little bit.

I can never truly understand human hearts.

“Hey, hey, Yukito.”

“……”

Like I can never truly understand Yukina’s heart.

“Hey, let’s go home together today. Lately, I’ve been going home with my friends and neglected you. I’m sorry. I guess that’s why you’re mad, right? Can we go home together today, Yukito?”

“……”

I’m actually really angry at this moment, I want to cut all ties with Yukina right here and now.

However, I have to hold myself back, I have to break up with her properly.

If Yukina is just my girlfriend, I can just casually break up with her and say, ‘Okay, it’s over between us.’

But because I’ve known her for such a long time, I can’t do that.

Moreover, if I just break up with Yukina like that, it’s going to be awkward with Setsuna and Kaori-san, who is Yukina’s mother.

Sometimes, long term relationships can work in a positive direction, but in cases like this, it’s just troublesome.

I thought that memories of our relationship would last forever, but they’re fading away now.

I wish I can just erase them completely from my mind.

“Y-Yukito. I’d be happy if you could at least say something, you know? H-Hey, Yukito?”

“…hah. Yukina. Tomorrow after school, do you have time?”

“Tomorrow after school? Y-Yeah, I’m free. I won’t be hanging out with my friends.”

I actually want to shout at her saying, ‘Why don’t you just spend the rest of your life playing with your ‘friends’?’, but I hold myself back.

I remember what Eri-san taught me, ‘Don’t let anger take over you’.

But well, I did snap this morning saying, ‘…ugh, shut up. Just go away’. I couldn’t help it, she was really persistent.

“I have something important to talk about. Well then.”

“O-Okay, I get it. L-Let’s go back together today…”

Ignoring Yukina’s attempt to stop me, I start walking.

Then, I dash out of school and jump onto the train.

Train

After fleeing from Yukina and quickly getting on the train, I let out a sigh of relief.

“Yukito, you’re walking too fast. I couldn’t catch up with you at all.”

“Setsuna.”

Suddenly, Setsuna called out to me.

Her hair is slightly messy.

After catching her breath, Setsuna sits down next to me.

“I called out to Yukito on the way, but you just left me.”

“Sorry, I was in a hurry.”

It seems like I didn’t hear Setsuna’s voice because I just wanted to get away from Yukina as quickly as possible.

“What’s wrong? You seemed to be in such a hurry. Did something happen?”

“Uh, well…”

“Maybe something happened with Onee-chan?”

“Yeah.”

I tell Setsuna about everything that happened today.

She has a disgusted look on her face.

“Maybe, because Yukito was so cold towards Onee-chan, she might be worried that you found out about her affair.”

“That could be it. But anyway, I’m planning to break up with Yukina tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow? After school?”

“Yeah. I just want to end this relationship as soon as possible. It would be better for both of us, don’t you think?”

Even though I said it would be better for both of us, does it sound like I’m just making excuses to break up with Yukina as soon as possible?

“Yeah, that might be right. But are you okay? Have you sorted out your feelings properly, Yukito?”

“Yeah…I’ve thought about it, and I already have my answer.”

“I see. Then I won’t say anything more.”

Setsuna says so with a smile on her face.

…what are these feelings?

Even though I’ve known Setsuna since we were little, I’ve been too focused on Yukina all this time.

Setsuna has become so much more mature than me.

It makes me want to scold myself from a few months ago, who spoke arrogantly about being a role model for Setsuna.

“Ah, Yukito. Can I come over to your place today? It’s been a while.”

“My place?”

“Yeah. Since Yukito and Onee-chan started dating, I hardly ever go to your place anymore, so I feel like going today.”

“…we’re still together, you know.”

“Ah, that’s right. Then how about after you break up?”

“In that case, sure. Fine by me.”

“Yay! I can finally visit your place after so long. Ah, by the way, I’ve gotten pretty good at cooking. Yukito, it must be tough for you to study and do household chores every day. I’ll cook for you tomorrow.”

“Eh? Are you sure?”

“Yeah, leave it to me.”

After that, Setuna and I walk side by side until we reach the fork.