I Don’t Like Endings Where the Person who Cheats Gets Forgiven, so I Will not Forgive Her

Fool

Yukina’s POV

“Where do I belong?”

I murmured to myself so absent-mindedly as I spent the night under an unfamiliar ceiling.

I recall my memories of that day.

That night then Setsuna and Yukito started dating.

My mother asked me if I have really broken up with Yukito and if I had done something terrible to hurt him.

Surely, no matter what lies I told at that point, it will all be revealed when my mother finds out about Setsuna’s and Yukito’s relationship.

At least being honest was my atonement that I could to then, I thought.

So, I confessed that I have cheated on Yukito with a senpai at my part-time job.

Of course, my mother scolded me.

‘Why? How could you?’

My mom asked me these obvious questions.

However, looking back now, I wonder why?

Why did I cheat on Yukito?

How could I have done such a thing?

At that time, I think I was only focused on what was right in front of me and could only think about myself.

Yeah, I’m such a selfish person.

Of course, I felt guilty as I confessed my wrongdoing to my mother, but at the same time, I felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

After finishing the conversation with my mother, it felt awkward.

So, I go back to my room, get into bed, close my eyes and put on my earphones.

I can’t help but remember the look in my mother’s eyes as I told her about all my wrongdoings.

I’m sure I’ll hear to their happy voices again tonight.

Suddenly, I hear a notification sound from my phone.

When I open my eyes and check, it’s from senpai.

‘It seems like you’ve been feeling down lately. Are you okay?’

It’s partly senpai’s fault, but…no, it’s all my fault.

I’ve always blamed others for my own shortcoming, that’s why I ended up doing something so despicable to Yukito.

It’s my fault for letting go someone as perfect and mature as Yukito.

Normally, I would’ve ignored the message, but maybe because my parents have found out about the awful thing I did, I feel like nothing matters anymore.

‘I’m okay.’

I replied so.

‘I see. Ah, by the way, I want to go shopping for clothes the next time I have a day off. Would you help me pick some out?’

In hindsight, I realize this is just another way of avoiding being at home.

‘Yeah, sure.’

I replied to senpai so.

‘Then let’s talk about it in detail next time we’re working.’

‘Yes.’

I’m a really foolish woman who keeps on making the wrong choices without reflecting on my past mistakes.

It’s too late for me to understand that I’m just a helpless piece of human trash that doesn’t reflect on anything.

Chapter 36

“Ojamashimasu.”

“Welcome, Setsuna.”

“Thank you for having me today. Here, please.”

“You don’t need to be so considerate. Thank you.”

Today is the day Setsuna is staying over at my house, it’s something we’ve planned for a while.

She has been looking forward to it for quite some time now.

She seems really excited since yesterday, I also feel like she’s been more affectionate than usual.

After chatting with Dad for a bit in the living room, I lead Yukina to my room.

“This is Yukito’s room…it’s so calming here.”

“Is that so?”

“Yeah. It just feels comforting knowing that Yukito lives here. Hmm, I can’t quite put it into words. But, yeah, it just feels really calming.”

“I see.”

I don’t quite understand it, but I’m glad that she feels comfortable here.

“I’ll bring some tea and snacks. You can sit on the bed or anywhere you want.”

“Yeah, got it. Thanks.”

I smile at Setsuna, who has a beaming smile on her face, before leaving the room.

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Setsuna’s POV

I see Yukito leaving the room with a smile on my face.

Then after confirming that there is no one else around, I jump onto the bed without hesitation to enjoy Yukito’s scent.

That day when he confessed to me, we did…naughty things here, but at that time, my mind was so preoccupied with the intimacy that I couldn’t fully enjoy his scent.

“Being here really feels comforting after all.”

A surge of happiness fills me to the point where I feel like my head might melt.

There is a sense of reassurance in this bed that is different from the sense of reassurance I felt when I hugged Yukihiro himself.

Surely, there won’t be enough time to fully enjoy this bed once night falls, so it’s better do it now.

This alone is worth staying over at Yukito’s house for, but I have something important to do tonight.

That’s why I insisted Yukito to let me stay over at his place.

Because it’s something that will affect us in the future.

Of course, that doesn’t mean having sex and making out with Yukito are not important.

I might even say that flirting with Yukito is more important to me than breathing.

But there is something else that I have to prioritize.

Well, that’s something for later.

Right now, I should just enjoy the scent of Yukito’s bed without thinking too much about it.