I Don’t Like Endings Where the Person who Cheats Gets Forgiven, so I Will not Forgive Her - Chapter 29-30

Happy Times

“No, I don’t want to go yet. I still want to be with you.”

“Well, my dad will be home soon, and it’s getting dark outside. We can be together again tomorrow, okay?”

“Ugh…”

Although I knew he would refuse it, my desire to stay with Yukito, to love and be loved, overflow uncontrollably. I couldn’t help but to say so to him.

Yukito is really kind and handsome, on top of that, he is really gentle.

When we were doing it earlier, it felt so good that I couldn’t help but want to stay connected with him forever.

It felt so warm every time Yukito was inside me, my head would spin with happiness.

Although I was a little embarrassed during the after-talk, it’s still a precious memory for me.

After all, I’ve been longing to do these things with Yukito for so long, so I can’t help it.

“Hey, let’s talk on the phone again tonight, okay?”

“Yeah, of course.”

“Promise me, okay?”

“Yeah, I promise.”

I know that I have to go home soon, but I still want to be with Yukito a little longer.

Seeing me like this, Yukito smiles wryly and quietly leans in to give me a light kiss.

“Today is not the day, but I’ll ask my dad if you can stay over this weekend. How about that?”

“Eh!? Really?”

“Yeah.”

“Okay! I’m looking forward to it!”

Seeing how happy I am, Yukito smiles too.

Then, he gives me another kiss before I go home.

Ah…I’m so happy.

I can’t wait to call Yukito when I get home.

…speaking of going home, I wonder how Onee-chan is feeling.

The other day, we subtly mentioned about where Yukito would confess his feelings to me over the phone, so Onee-chan must be there when Yukito confessed his feelings to me.

I wonder what kind of expression Onee-chan had on her face when she saw Yukito and I kissing each other so passionately?

I wonder if she cried?

Or maybe she got really angry?

Just thinking about it makes me want to burst out laughing.

She definitely knows that Yukito and I are dating now, and that probably hit her pretty hard emotionally.

Maybe, she is seeking comfort from that college student.

Poor Onee-chan.

However, it can’t be helped.

After all, it’s all her fault.

She made Yukito suffer so much, so she has to be punished accordingly.

Seeing how much Onee-chan is suffering, I can’t help but want to ease her burden a little.

However, I don’t want to waste my time on a trash like Onee-chan that I don’t even think as a human being anymore.

If I have time for that, I’d rather spend it enjoying my happy times with Yukito.

Nausea

My head hurts terribly.

As the unbearable throbbing pain hit me, I throw up everything that I ate from my bento.

“U-Ugh…I can’t take it…it’s so painful…”

Unable to resist the nausea, I rush to the bathroom and vomit vigorously.

‘I love you. Please go out with me.’

‘Yeah, of course. I love you too, Yukito.’

Even though I don’t want to remember it, the scene from earlier suddenly flashes back into my mind.

After Yukito confessed to Setsuna, those two…

The happy atmosphere between them…

The passionate kiss that they share…

It’s really painful…

I couldn’t bear it anymore, so I ran away from the scene.

Right now, I’m crouching miserably, facing the toilet bowl.

“Ugh…”

After vomiting everything that I ate from my bento and winces at she sharp smell of stomach acid, I feel even more miserable.

Especially when I recall Yukito and Setsuna’s kiss, my body trembles uncontrollably and my teeth are gritting.

“It’s cold…it hurts…Yukito…help me…please help…”

When things got though like this, Yukito was always there for me, he was the only person I could rely on.

When I was having a hard time, he would understand without me having to say anything and stayed by my side no matter what.

It was foolish of me to let Yukito go.

I truly understand that this is my punishment for betraying him.

This is not enough to make up the sins I committed against Yukito. I have to suffer more.

However, because I am a weak and helpless person, I end up clinging onto Yukito this whole time and asked for his help.

Now that I betrayed him, I can no longer rely on him.

I’m a useless person who can’t take even a single step forward by myself.

It’s safe to say that I’m almost certain now that I won’t be able to be by Yukito’s side anymore.

I can’t imagine Setsuna letting go of Yukito like I did, and from the way things look, she will never leave him.

As I’m thinking about that truth, I’m left stunned and my body can’t stop trembling.

“I…what should I do?”

When Yukito and I were still lovers, every time I smiled, Yukito would smile back gently at me.

We would talk on the phone every day, even without a reason.

We always walked to and from school together happily, celebrate our birthdays and anniversary together.

Ah…I wish I can go back to those happy days.