I Don’t Like Endings Where the Person who Cheats Gets Forgiven, so I Will not Forgive Her

Exciting Feelings

Yukina’s POV

I met a senpai at my part-time job, Yuuto Mimura, about two weeks after starting the job.

The first time I worked the same shift as him, I wondered what kind of person he was.

It turned out that he is a university student, older than me.

He gives off an impression of being calm and cool at first glance, and I thought that he must be a mature person.

However, he turned out to be surprisingly careless or rather lazy.

There were times when I, his junior, had to cover up mistakes he made at work, and there were also times when he disappeared without a word.

Others said he is clueless at work, and at first, I also thought that way, even though he is older than me.

However, at the same time, I couldn’t help but feel that despite being older than me, he should have been more mature, yet he seemed even more incompetent than me.

Despite having Yukito, I found myself talking to him more often.

At first, I treated him as nothing more than a friend.

After all, Yuuto-senpai also had a girlfriend, so I didn’t expect anything developing between us.

As I continued talking to him, I realized that despite his cluelessness at times, he also has a kind side, and I was able to treat him as a good friend.

As Yukito’s birthday approached, although I had originally planned to quit my part-time job, I decided to continue working because I wanted to become a better girlfriend standing by Yukito’s side.

The reason I continued my part-time job was not only because I wanted to talk to Yuuto-senpai, but also because Yukito, who I love, seemed to be lonely because we didn’t spend much time together anymore.

I noticed it despite his attempts to hide it, but there were hints of sadness in Yukito’s eyes.

Having been with him for years, I picked up on this subtle change.

Knowing that the seemingly perfect and mature Yukito whom I love so much harboured feelings of jealously was both surprising and heartwarming.

Amidst these days, a significant change occurred.

I learned from Yuuto-senpai himself that he broke up with his girlfriend. Given the close relationship we shared at work, he looked sad as he confided in me at the end of our shift.

‘I broke up with my girlfriend.’

Yuuto-senpai told me so.

He was supposed to be more mature than me, but he was so vulnerable at that time.

I couldn’t help but to instinctively grasp his hand and ask,

‘Are you okay?’

Seeing the pitiful sight of Yuuto-senpai, I couldn’t help but be drawn to him, and not only did I grasp his hand but also ended up embracing him.

As I hugged him, I couldn’t help but to remember about Yukito.

I felt pain and guilt.

The sense of immorality of betraying Yukito ran down my spine.

Nectar

Yukina’s POV

Despite being the same age as me, Yukito is much more mature than me.

On the other hand, Yuuto-senpai who is older than me, to put it bluntly, he is a bit of a mess.

While I wouldn’t say I like Yuuto-senpai…I found myself becoming increasingly interested in him.

Of course, I love my boyfriend, Yukito.

I love his smile, he cherished our anniversaries, his words and actions always convey that he put me first above anything else.

I can tell that he loved me very much.

However, I couldn’t help but wonder if my boyfriend is really the right person for me.

The Yukito who appears to be perfect and more mature than me in every way.

When such a small doubt began to grow in me, I should have talked with Yukito from the start.

But because of my own stubbornness, I felt it wasn’t right to discuss such things with Yukito.

…no, to be honest, I felt like discussing it with him would be admitting that I’m not worthy of Yukito.

My childish stubbornness.

That small pride made me seem even more childish and left me feeling miserable.

If I had been more committed to improving myself and becoming a girl worthy of Yukito, things might have turned out differently.

Instead of standing by Yukito’s side, I took the easy way out with my childish thinking.

Looking back, I realize that was a crucial turning point.

As my time with Yuuto-senpai gradually increased, my time with Yukito decreased.

Yukito’s jealousy towards me, along with the reassurance from an older person relying on me, filled me with a sense of self-worth.

Indulging in such sweet nectar, I eventually ended up going on a date with Yuuto-senpai, holding hands, and even kissing, even though it was initiated by him.

Despite feeling an unbearable feeling of guilt towards Yukito, the thrilling sensation of casually meeting and talking with Yukito the next day was too overwhelming.

There was no turning back. My sense of immortality destroyed by sense of ethics.

While I didn’t allow Yuuto-senpai to go as far as physical intimacy, I’ve done everything else with him multiple times.

Drawing the line at physical intimacy was my biggest boundary.

Even though I refrained from physical intimacy, I was well aware that what I was doing is wrong.

However, I couldn’t stop, indulging in nectar, my mind completely rotted.

I continued to be cold to Yukito but kind to Yuuto-senpai.

As I was spending those days, Setsuna told me something.

‘Yukito said that Onee-chan has been really cold towards him lately, it’s really painful for him. He even started thinking about breaking up with you. It’s okay to hang out with friends, but you also need to consider Yukito’s feelings.’

Upon hearing this from Setsuna, I immediately sent a message to Yukito.

Even though I have positive feelings toward Yuuto-senpai, my love for Yukito remained unchanged.

‘Do you want to go on a date today? At your place or mine is fine.’

However, it was too late to say something like that by then.