I Came Back from the Dead, Quit Being a Holy Hero, and Just Wanna Shake My Hips in a Harem - Chapter 18: Your Smile

Chapter 18: Your Smile

Filio was drenched in sweat—fat, glistening beads rolling down her cheeks—as she let out the lewdest moans imaginable.

“Ohooohn ♥ Yes, yes, that’s it ♥ R-Right at the tip, sooo good ♥ I can feel it deep in my bellyyy ♥ That hard, grindy little part feels amazing♥”

She pressed the hilt of her dagger right against herself, grinding it between her legs without a shred of hesitation—completely lost in the moment.

That usual breezy, cheerful smile of hers? Gone—replaced by a melting, lust-drunk expression. Her face looked completely overtaken by pleasure, and her huge boobs jiggled shamelessly with every movement.

Add her baby face to the mix, and the whole thing just looked way too indecent.

A noble girl like Filio—moaning like that, with that look on her face—

Yeah, I honestly felt the urge to start rubbing one out right there with her.

Crap!! Eye contact!!

“Ohohoho…n—⁉⁉⁉ A-Aaaah♥♥♥”

The moment our eyes met, Filio’s eyes shot wide open—full-on, maximum alert mode.

That must’ve been the final trigger.

Her whole body trembled with little spasms, and she slumped forward just a bit.

Tongue sticking out, chest rising and falling, face flushed and teary—

“Haa… haa…♥”

She was panting hard, totally dazed.

God, I seriously wanna give in and go wild watching Filio like this.

But the air in the room had turned… heavy.

And Filio’s face was now beet red.

“When… When did you start watching, Haruya?”

“…Around the ‘ohooohn’ part.”

“I see…”

She slowly slid the thoroughly-used dagger out from between her legs in one smooth, unbroken motion.

I braced myself—ready to die.

But unlike Lily, Filio responded… in a completely different way.

“Would you… mind finishing me off?”

She said it so plainly—so bluntly—that I panicked and cut in without thinking.

“E-Everyone does it! Masturbation’s totally normal! I jerk off all the time too!”

“Yeah, but who does that mid-dungeon crawl like it’s no big deal!?”

“W-Well, uh…”

“See!? No one!!”

“B-But when the horniness really kicks in, I end up moaning and going full-on perv mode too!”

“Stop calling it over and over!!”

“I mean, it is, but that doesn’t make it weird! I even hype myself up sometimes, yelling stuff like, ‘Lily’s pussy’s amazing! So pretty! Feels soooo good!’ while I’m going at it!”

Filio’s face turned bright red as she stared at me like I’d just dropped the most insane thing she’d ever heard.

“W-Wait… you seriously think about your teammates like that!?”

“It’s because we’re teammates! That’s what makes it even better!”

C’mon, all humans are like this deep down‼ Same instincts‼ Probably‼

So don’t beat yourself up!

“I use Lily’s edging roleplay stuff as fap material all the time!”

“You’re not even dating her!! Don’t you feel guilty!?”

“It’s because we’re not dating! That’s the whole point! It’s fantasy-jackoff-for-discipline! That’s what teammates are for!”

That’s the spirit of comradeship!

…Wait. Is it?

I don’t even know anymore‼

Filio looked like the word “teammates” had just shattered every last dream she’d ever had.

Crap! This conversation’s going off the rails!

Time for Plan B!

“If you off yourself now, what’ll you say to Merle!? Aren’t you here to save her parents!?”

…That one hit hard.

Filio slumped forward like someone had just drained the strength right out of her.

Yeah, that was probably the most effective thing I could’ve said.

Honestly… I should’ve just led with that.

She looked completely deflated now—like even opening her mouth was too much.

…Jeez. Maybe it’s that noble upbringing.

Probably can’t forgive herself for going full-on perv mode earlier.

I’d really prefer not to get tangled up with royalty or nobility…

But losing her as a party right now? That’d be bad news.

“Doesn’t matter who you really are, Filio.”

“…!?”

“I know you’re hiding your real identity. But you’re overthinking it.”

Even high-class types rub one out sometimes.

Though yeah, I have heard of noble families so uptight they don’t even teach their kids what masturbation is.

“So… you knew, huh? Figures.”

She gave me a small, awkward smile—caught somewhere between troubled and apologetic.

“Not like I’ve got it all figured out. But if keeping it buried is weighing you down, maybe it’s time you let it out?”

Well.

It’s not exactly news to me.

Filio Valshad.

Her real name—Filio Val Eedelshade.

The House of Eedelshade was a renowned exorcist clan from the southern kingdom.

Masters of ancient magical relics, with distant royal blood ties—

A family with serious noble pedigree.

Hardly anyone around here would recognize the name, but in the world of exorcists? They’re kind of a big deal.

Heard Filio had been acting as the head of the family ever since she was a kid, too.

“Haruya, would you listen for a bit?”

“Of course. If it’ll help you feel better.”

“Thanks… So, um… There’s something unusual about my bloodline.”

Filio spoke in this quiet, serious tone.

Yeah, I already know—you’re the head of the Eedelshade family.

“…Actually, I have succubus blood in me.”

…………………………

Huh?

Succu—what??

SUCCUBUS⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉

“And… this is my true form.”

A strange wind swirled around Filio—nothing like her usual gentle breeze.

It felt ominous. Intense. Like she was someone else entirely.

And then—horns grew from her head, wings unfurled from her waist, and a cute little tail popped out behind her.

“This is my succubus form.”

Her usual bright smile was gone—now replaced with something a little nervous, almost scared.

…………………………Wait, WHAT?

Filio’s a succubus⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉⁉

“You’re… surprisingly calm about this, Haruya.”

I was not calm. I was just way too stunned to process anything.

“…S-So, uh… the wings and tail… how do those even work?”

“They’re made of magic. They form just a little away from the body, so my clothes don’t get torn.”

Huh. That’s actually pretty convenient…

But still—Filio. A succubus…? 

Wait a minute—

It actually explains a lot‼

Why she didn’t end up as the Hero… her ridiculous detection range… that stealth technique…

They’re probably all succubus skills! Like bedroom infiltration powers or something!

Hold on, HOLD ON—

The head of the Eedelshade family is part succubus⁉⁉⁉

“Filio, you’re… human, right?”

“My grandmother was a succubus. So technically, I’m human… I mean, I do have demonic blood, I guess.”

Filio narrowed her eyes at her own wings.

She didn’t look too fond of them.

That distant, closed-off smile on her face…

Made me hesitate for a moment.

But then I remembered—

Even half-dead in our past life, she still tried to carry out her duty as a noble.

…But I’m not the Hero anymore.

So I don’t have to keep pretending.

“So a human and a demon… actually had a kid?”

“Yeah. One of the noble forebears went and did it… kind of on a whim.”

“A noble forebear, huh? So you really are from some fancy noble line, huh?”

She clearly didn’t want to dwell on it, so I figured I’d help move things along and just say what I already knew.

“…My real name is Filio Val Eedelshade. I’m the head of a family of exorcists.”

“Eedelshade… I’ve heard that name. Something about being distantly related to royalty?”

“Very distantly. Basically strangers at this point… Definitely nothing worth bragging about.”

The way she said it made it obvious—she wasn’t proud of her family ties.

So then… why did she take her responsibilities so seriously?

“A family of exorcists, and yet someone got involved with a succubus…?”

“They were trying to create a new kind of magic, apparently. Luckily, my mom didn’t inherit anything from the succubus side. But…”

“So you ended up with the succubus traits, huh…”

“Yeah… just the succubus powers. No revolutionary new magic ever came of it. So they were kind of at a loss about how to dispose of me…”

Disposed of.

Yeah… She meant that literally.

My face tensed on instinct.

But Filio?

She just smiled—so bright it was honestly terrifying.

“…My mother and I were banished. We ended up in this tiny village so small, it wasn’t even on the map. Lived under fake names so no one would find out who we really were.”

“So you two had to build an entirely new life.”

“The family still kept tabs on us, of course. Whenever I got scared, my mom would always say: ‘The blood of Eedelshade will protect you. Ours is a noble bloodline that exists to protect everyone’s smiles.’ She really believed that someday, we’d be welcomed back into the estate.”

Filio’s smile didn’t budge.

It was bright. Controlled.

Polished to perfection—like she refused to let it crack.

You could practically feel the stubbornness behind it.

My skin crawled.

There was anger in that smile.

A quiet, sharpened fury simmering beneath the surface.

“One day… monsters showed up out of nowhere. I don’t know how they heard about us, but they held a grudge against the Eedelshade family. They attacked the village. But… I wasn’t scared.”

“…Why not?”

“Because the Eedelshade family would come. Mom truly believed that. Right up until the end.”

Filio kept smiling—like she still believed it, even now.

But—just for the briefest instant—

A flicker passed through her eyes.

A glint of something so deep it could split stone:

Rage. Grief. Something too heavy for words.

“…Haruya, no one came. Not a single soul. Haha…”

That dry little laugh…

Carried a wound that would never fully heal. 

While I sat there wondering what happened to the people who were supposed to be watching them—

Filio gave me the answer.

“They chose to protect their favorite merchant group over us. Better pay, rare magic tools—real profitable partners.”

“…”

“That merchant crew once dug up a strange-looking box. Layers and layers of seals were wrapped around it. But one of the Eedelshade guys got careless and opened it anyway. Turns out it was a cursed relic—designed specifically to wipe out their own bloodline. …Maybe I was spared because of the demonic blood in me.”

“…So no one else made it out, huh.”

“Yeah. All the top candidates to become the next head? Dead from the curse. That’s why they came knocking on my door.”

“You…”

I was about to ask—

How did you end up becoming the head after that?

But I bit my tongue.

That bright smile of hers…

It couldn’t hide the storm of grief and rage boiling underneath.

She knew better than anyone—

There’s no such thing as a convenient hero.

In her past life, she tried to be that kind of hero.

Tried to live up to the weight of the power she was born with.

Even though the people she probably wanted to scream at the most… were already gone.

Carrying wounds that would never fade,

She still stood tall.

Still fought back.

Like she was shouting with everything she had—I won’t lose. I won’t let this world win.

That’s why she was so desperate to keep everyone smiling.

Why she threw herself into duty, into responsibility—

Even when it put her life on the line.

Maybe… she was trying to save everyone.

And maybe… she was trying to save herself, too.

Maybe that’s why she never told me the truth back then.

Because she wanted to be light itself.

As for what she truly felt toward me, the so-called convenient hero…

I’ll never know.

Because I reset everything.

And that past is gone.

“Thanks for… not asking, Haruya.”

She gave me that same bright, breezy smile again—

Like if I had asked, she wouldn’t have been able to keep that light shining.

“To me, Filio is… a cheerful, refreshing, and super horny girl.”

“…I’d really appreciate it if you could forget what just happened. I got a little too worked up.”

“Nope. You’re a precious teammate—so I’m absolutely keeping that memory on file.”

“That shameless attitude of yours… kinda helps, actually.”

For the first time, Filio’s smile almost faltered.

And just as I was thinking, If she starts crying, I’m hitting her with the biggest laugh bomb I’ve got—

A voice called out.

“Lord Haruya! Filio! Please come over here!”

Lily’s voice.

Filio instantly dispelled her succubus form.

That familiar smile returned to her face—just like always.

Without saying another word, I walked over to rejoin Lily.

Time to push deeper into the dungeon and get back to the mission.

I had no idea back then.

That at the very end of this dungeon,

I’d transform into…

The Full-On Boner Bastard.