I became the boyfriend of the school's madonna, who had turned down numerous confessions, but somehow, without realizing it, I wasn't just playing a role anymore - Chapter 64

Episode 64: Despair and Trust

“What’s wrong…?”

Seeing Misaki’s clearly worsening complexion, I immediately asked with concern. Did I say something bad…?

“Uh, well, um…”

Misaki blatantly avoided eye contact.

Not only that, she distanced herself from my arm as if trying to escape.

“Misaki…?”

“Yeah, it’s not like I said that… Even so, I got carried away with my first love, and forgot everything until now… I’ve been selfishly enjoying the feeling of being in a relationship, even hoping for a confession… To you, it must seem like I’m too greedy…”

With a despairing expression and murmuring to herself, Misaki, who had distanced herself from me, seemed to have lost her spirit. It didn’t seem like my voice reached her.

“W-What should I do…? It’s impossible, like this… No matter how I start, you’ll hate me…”

Misaki has a tendency to jump to conclusions.

I don’t know how she interpreted my words, but she might have misunderstood them as rejection and spiraled into negative thoughts on her own.

Thinking that, I closed the distance between us before Misaki could escape.

Then, gently holding Misaki’s right hand with my left, I lifted her chin with my right hand, forcibly turning her face towards mine.

“—”

As a result, Misaki gasped.

Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes, as if she was about to cry.

“What are you muttering to yourself? Do you think I rejected you? I—”

If it’s a misunderstanding, it’s better to resolve it before it escalates.

Thinking that, I tried to explain—

“It’s not… I’m just too despicable…”

—Apparently, Misaki didn’t misunderstand my words.

What does she mean by “despicable”…?

Misaki’s demeanor changed while we were talking earlier.

But there was nothing in that conversation that would make Misaki feel despicable.

Something came to mind—though it’s too sudden.

If so, there must have been some trigger… but nothing comes to mind.

It seems asking Misaki directly would be quicker.

“Can you explain what you mean?”

Since she seems mentally exhausted, I asked Misaki gently, both in tone and expression.

However—

“…! …!”

Misaki, shedding tears as if frightened by something, desperately shook her head from side to side.

It seems she’s afraid to talk to me.

She said she was despicable, so there must be something quite terrible she’s aware of.

I understand the feeling of difficulty in confessing one’s own faults to others.

But I’m afraid she might break down like this if she keeps it in.

If she doesn’t want to talk about it—then it’s okay, right?

“Whatever you say, I won’t look down on you or get angry. Trust me and talk to me.”

I looked Misaki straight in the eyes and conveyed my thoughts.

It’s a word I can say because I believe she hasn’t done anything wrong—but no matter what she says now, I won’t look down on Misaki.

All I can do now is wait for Misaki to trust me and speak up.

[Afterword]

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