I, a Holy-Attributed Healer, Am Surrounded by Beautiful, Big-Breasted Women of the Female Knight Brigade - Chapter 77 - The Feelings in My Heart [Krish’s POV]

Chapter 77 – The Feelings in My Heart [Krish’s POV]

[Krish’s POV]

The festival is over, and we have overcome many difficulties together.

Thanks to Salt-dono, we have been able to solve a major incident.

I think my bond with him has deepened even more.

However, I’m still not very good at understanding people’s hearts.

Salt-dono is devoted to everyone and is full of kindness.

This includes Lana-sama, who is not good with men, and Freyna-sama, who is friendly but does not date any particular men.

Even Mei, who is realistic and keeps her distance from men, has offered to be by Salt-dono’s side.

I know that Salt-dono will be leaving tomorrow.

When I thought about losing Salt-dono, my feelings for him became clear for the first time.

It was the first time I had felt this way, and I didn’t know what to do, so I tried to sort it out in my head.

I sat on a bench in the mansion’s courtyard and looked up at the night sky.

Once the excitement of the festival is over, winter will come.

The cold wind caressed my cheeks, cooling my head.

However, when I thought of Salt-dono, my heart wavered.

There are so many things I want to tell him.

He saved my life, helped Mei and Lana-sama, and not only treated me, an attributeless person, as an equal, but also relied on me.

Is it okay to just let him go like this?

I haven’t been able to repay him for anything, but he saved my friends and my gratitude only keeps growing.

I want to go on a journey with him, repay him, and tell him how I feel.

However, the responsibility of being the vice-commander of the Fourth Knight weighs heavily on me.

I must fulfill my mission as a knight. A knight’s job is to protect the person they have chosen as their lord. And the person I chose as my lord is Lana-sama.

Losing Salt-dono will leave a deep wound in my heart. But that is also fate.

“You seem to be worried about something, Krish.”

“Lana-sama!”

“Freyna isn’t here tonight, so I came here to get some fresh air.”

I glanced around the shadows and saw the guards looking my way.

It’s pathetic that I didn’t notice their presence.

When I looked up, Lana-sama was looking at me with kind eyes.

Lana-sama had picked me up from the slums and given me my current position.

I trusted Lana-sama and confided in her how I felt.

“Lana-sama, I… I’m worried about Salt-dono.”

“Oh my. So we have the same problem, Krish.”

“Lana-sama too?”

“I thought you were out of touch with these kinds of feelings.”

“Yes. I’m confused myself. This is the first time I’ve felt this way.”

Sitting next to me, I lowered my gaze and began to talk about the inner conflict I was experiencing.

“But Salt-dono is going on a journey. I can’t abandon my responsibilities as the vice-commander of the Fourth Knight.”

“I see, so you don’t know what to do.”

Lana-sama nodded quietly.

“I understand your feelings very well, Krish. But you can’t ignore your emotions as a person.”

I listened to what Lana-sama was saying.

“But I must fulfill my duties as vice-commander. Leaving with Salt-dono would mean running away.”

Lana-sama’s cold, beautiful hand rested on my rough one.

“Krish, you are a person with a stronger sense of responsibility than anyone else. But if this responsibility is causing you pain, it’s okay to forgive yourself a little. If traveling with Salt is a new path for you, we will support that decision.”

Lana-sama’s kindness brought tears to my eyes.

“Is it really okay?”

“It’s fine. I will support the path you want to take. But, can I tell you my feelings?”

“Lana-sama’s feelings?”

“Yes, I love Salt.”

“Wha——!”

“When Salt returns to the Corias territory, I want to welcome him as his wife.”

I was so shocked by Lana-sama’s feelings that I began to think it might be better to suppress my own feelings.

“Don’t misunderstand.”

“Eh?”

“I can’t go on a journey with Salt. So, can you protect him, who may become my husband, and support him as his wife? I want Krish to do what I can’t.”

I wanted to be honest with my feelings. Yet, I couldn’t abandon my pride as a knight.

Lana-sama told me her feelings for Salt-dono, and her words eased her heart.

“Thank you, Lana-sama. I feel like my mission and feelings have come together.”

“Whatever decision you make, I will always support you. Be true to your feelings, and choose a path you will not regret.”

I used the time I had left to think for a long time.

I was torn between my feelings and my responsibilities, but finally came to a decision.

The next morning, I got into the wagon in which Salt-dono was leaving.

“Krish-sama!”

Mei’s surprised expression was amusing, but I told her how I felt and the permission I had received from Lana-sama.

Then, when Salt-dono noticed that I was in the wagon, he looked surprised, but then smiled kindly.

“Why is Krish-san here?”

“I-I haven’t repaid my debt yet.”

“Eh?”

“Salt-dono saved my life and Mei’s twice. But I haven’t repaid that debt. This would be a disgrace to my name as a knight! That’s why I want to accompany you and be of use to you!”

“I welcome having another companion on the journey. But is it really okay?”

“Yeah, when I offered to be Salt-dono’s guard, Lana-sama gave me permission to go.”

“Is that so? Then I’ll count on you.”

“Yes, thank you.”

I have decided to take a break from my duties as vice-commander of the Fourth Knight with new hope and determination in order to be Salt-dono’s guardian, who will become Lana-sama’s future husband, and to be by the side of the one I love.

When we return to the Corias territory someday, I hope we can all become a family.

♢

T/N: Oh my, Krish is softening up!

Anyway, this is the end of the festival arc, now we’re heading to the Azaman territory again. We should see Honey-sama and Mia, I think…

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