Help! I'm Trying to Be an Edgy Loner But Everyone Thinks I'm a Hero - Chapter 60
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Chapter 60 – The Perfect Storm of Idiots
【Ryuuji PoV】
The plan was perfect.
Leo sat across from me in the dimly lit tavern corner. His green eyes gleamed with what I assumed was shared enthusiasm for our revenge plot. We were finally doing it. Building the foundation for my inevitable, glorious betrayal arc.
I leaned forward.
“So we start with information gathering. Find out where your old party is.”
“Right.”
Leo nodded slowly.
His expression was difficult to read in the flickering candlelight. For a second, I thought I saw something calculating flash across his face. But it was gone before I could be sure.
“And then?”
“Then we make contact. Subtly. We can’t let them know we’re coming.”
This was it.
The beginning of my transformation from naive hero to hardened anti-hero. Once Leo betrayed me, once that knife plunged into my metaphorical back, I would finally have the tragic backstory I deserved.
“You’re really invested in this.”
Leo’s voice was careful.
“Of course I am. Nobody deserves what happened to you.”
The lie tasted like victory.
I was playing the role of supportive friend perfectly. Building his trust so the eventual betrayal would hit harder. The irony was delicious. I was engineering my own downfall, and no one had any idea.
A server approached our table.
She set down two mugs of something that smelled vaguely alcoholic. I waited until she left before continuing.
“We need to be careful about Reina, though.”
Leo’s jaw tightened at her name.
“She doesn’t trust me.”
“She doesn’t trust anyone. It’s nothing personal.”
That was a lie.
It was absolutely personal. Reina had already threatened him at least twice that I knew of. Maybe more. The woman had trust issues that could fill a library.
“What if she interferes?”
“She won’t. As long as I vouch for you, you’re safe.”
Leo studied me for a long moment.
His gaze was intense. Searching. Like he was trying to read something written in a language he didn’t quite understand.
“You’re different from what I expected.”
“What do you mean?”
“The files said—”
He stopped abruptly.
His eyes widened, just a fraction. Like he’d made a mistake.
“The files?”
“The stories. The rumors. People talk about you like you’re some kind of saint.”
Nice save.
Not really, but I’d let it slide. Everyone was entitled to one verbal stumble.
“I’m not a saint. I’m just someone who knows what it’s like to want something more.”
“More than being a hero?”
“More than being their idea of a hero.”
That much was true.
I was so tired of the pedestal they’d built for me. The expectations. The constant, suffocating belief that I was good and pure and selfless.
I wasn’t any of those things.
I was petty. I was selfish. I was planning to use a traumatized kid’s revenge quest as a vehicle for my own character development.
I was basically a terrible person.
And I was completely fine with that.
“I think I understand.”
Leo leaned back in his chair.
His posture relaxed slightly. Whatever test he’d been running in his head, I’d apparently passed.
“So when do we start?”
“Tomorrow. I’ll tell the others we’re taking a side quest. Something low-level that won’t raise suspicion.”
“And the real objective?”
“Finding information on your old party. There’s a guild outpost two towns over. They keep records of registered adventuring parties.”
Leo’s smile was sharp.
Dangerous.
It was exactly the kind of smile a future betrayer should have.
Perfect.
【Amaterasu PoV】
I stared at the divine monitor in horror.
They were planning something.
Ryuuji and that infiltrator god were huddled in a corner of some grimy tavern, having what looked like an intense strategy session.
My popcorn bowl sat forgotten on the desk.
This was bad.
This was really, really bad.
Loki was supposed to corrupt Ryuuji. That was the plan. The beautiful, simple plan that would finally get me fired.
But Ryuuji looked excited.
Actually excited.
His eyes had that manic gleam I’d only seen once before, when he’d convinced the party to “heroically” break into a noble’s house to “expose corruption.”
Spoiler alert: There was no corruption.
The noble was just ugly and wore a lot of black.
Ryuuji had profiled him based on anime villain aesthetics.
It was a disaster. A hilarious disaster that somehow made Ryuuji look even more heroic when the noble turned out to be secretly donating to orphanages.
Now that same look was back.
And he was directing it at Loki.
I zoomed in on the conversation.
The divine monitor amplified their voices, cutting through the ambient noise of the tavern.
“—make contact. Subtly. We can’t let them know we’re coming.”
Ryuuji’s voice was hushed but eager.
What were they planning?
Loki responded, but his voice was too quiet to catch.
I adjusted the audio feed.
“—careful about Reina—”
Oh no.
They were planning something behind Reina’s back.
That was the worst possible move.
Reina didn’t do well with secrets. She did even worse with people she perceived as threats to Ryuuji operating without her knowledge.
This wasn’t corruption.
This was mutual destruction.
Both of them were walking into a meat grinder, and neither one realized the other was pushing.
A terrible thought occurred to me.
What if they succeeded?
What if Loki’s plan to corrupt Ryuuji actually worked, but in doing so, it made Ryuuji look even more complex and morally interesting?
What if Ryuuji’s bizarre need for character development aligned perfectly with Loki’s corruption attempt?
What if they accidentally made each other better at being worse?
I grabbed my popcorn.
This was going to be a train wreck.
A beautiful, catastrophic train wreck.
And I was going to watch every second of it.
【Loki PoV】
Something was wrong.
Very, very wrong.
Ryuuji was too enthusiastic about this revenge plot.
I’d spent millennia corrupting heroes. I knew the signs. The hesitation. The moral wrestling. The slow, agonizing descent from light into darkness.
Ryuuji had skipped all of that.
He’d gone straight to planning ambushes and information gathering like he’d been waiting his entire life for this opportunity.
“Tomorrow. I’ll tell the others we’re taking a side quest.”
His voice was filled with barely contained excitement.
This wasn’t a hero being led astray.
This was a lunatic finally finding an excuse to act on impulses he’d been suppressing.
“And the real objective?”
“Finding information on your old party. There’s a guild outpost two towns over.”
He’d already researched this.
Before I’d even arrived, he’d known about guild outposts and record-keeping systems.
This kid had been planning something.
I just wasn’t sure what.
My divine instincts were screaming that I was missing something. Some critical piece of information that would make this whole situation make sense.
But I was trapped in this mortal body.
My powers suppressed. My divine sight limited.
I was flying blind in a situation that was rapidly spiraling beyond my control.
“Is something wrong?”
Ryuuji’s question snapped me back to the present.
“No. Just thinking about what comes next.”
“After we find them?”
“After we find them.”
Ryuuji’s smile widened.
It should have been reassuring.
It wasn’t.
There was something predatory in that expression. Something that suggested he was thinking several steps ahead.
And I had no idea what those steps were.
“Get some rest, Leo. Tomorrow’s going to be a big day.”
He stood up.
Clapped me on the shoulder with a camaraderie that felt simultaneously genuine and completely artificial.
Then he walked away, leaving me alone at the table.
I sat there for a long moment.
Staring at my untouched drink.
Wondering what I’d just gotten myself into.
This wasn’t going according to plan.
Amaterasu’s hero wasn’t pure.
He wasn’t even particularly heroic.
He was something else entirely.
And I was starting to suspect that corrupting him wasn’t going to be as simple as I’d thought.
It might not even be possible.
Because you can’t corrupt what’s already fundamentally broken.
【Ryuuji PoV】
I made it back to my room without running into Reina.
A small miracle.
I closed the door and leaned against it, letting out a long breath.
Everything was falling into place.
Leo was completely on board with the revenge plan. The party trusted my judgment. Reina was suspicious, but that actually worked in my favor.
Her distrust meant she’d be watching.
And when Leo eventually betrayed me, she’d be there to witness it.
The ultimate “I told you so” moment.
Except I’d be the one hurt, and she’d have been right all along.
It was perfect.
Tragic.
Narratively satisfying.
I pulled out my notebook.
The one I kept hidden under a loose floorboard.
It was filled with plans. Scenarios. Character arcs.
I flipped to the section labeled “Betrayal Arc.”
Under it, I’d written detailed notes about story structure, emotional beats, and the importance of setup.
A good betrayal required three things.
Trust.
Investment.
And the twist.
I had the trust. Leo believed I was helping him.
I had the investment. I was putting time and resources into his revenge quest.
Now I just needed the twist.
The moment where everything fell apart.
Where the friend became the enemy.
Where the hero realized he’d been played all along.
I started sketching out possibilities.
Maybe Leo would sell me out to his old party.
Maybe he’d frame me for a crime.
Maybe he’d steal something precious and disappear into the night.
Each option was better than the last.
My hand moved across the page, filling it with increasingly dramatic scenarios.
A knock at the door made me jump.
I shoved the notebook under my pillow.
“Yeah?”
“It’s Kenji. Can I come in?”
Crap.
“Uh, sure.”
The door opened.
Kenji stepped inside, his expression serious.
That was never a good sign.
“We need to talk about Leo.”
My heart sank.
“What about him?”
“I think you’re doing a great thing. Helping him like this.”
Oh.
Not what I expected.
“It’s just the right thing to do.”
“I know. And that’s what makes you such a great leader.”
Kenji sat on the edge of my bed.
His sincerity was physically painful.
“But I’m worried about you.”
“Worried?”
“You’re taking on his pain. His burden. I can see it affecting you.”
No.
No, no, no.
This was not the narrative.
“I’m fine, Kenji.”
“You’re not fine. You’ve been different since you brought him back.”
Different.
Not corrupted. Not darker.
Just different.
“I just want to help him get justice.”
“I know. But don’t forget to take care of yourself too.”
He stood up.
Placed a hand on my shoulder.
“We’re here for you. All of us. Whatever you need.”
Then he left.
I sat there in stunned silence.
Staring at the closed door.
They thought I was being selfless.
Heroic.
Taking on Leo’s emotional burden out of the goodness of my heart.
They had no idea I was using him.
No idea I was engineering my own downfall.
I pulled the notebook back out.
Crossed out everything I’d written.
This was harder than I thought.





































