Delivery Boy and Masked Girl - A delivery boy discovers the secret of a beautiful gal at his delivery destination. - Chapter 49: At One's Limit And True Feelings.
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At One’s Limit And True Feelings.
Shizuki’s face seemed to be filled with determination, anxiety, and even a sense of refreshing.
“Are you sure about…?”
“…I thought about it. What would happen if I left it as it is?”
Beyond Shizuki’s window, I could see snow fluttering outside.
I was so caught up in Shizuki’s story that I didn’t notice that it had begun to snow.
As it is.
She continued to be a different character than she normally is at school and spent time with the fancy gals.
That’s what Shizuki means by ‘As it is.’
“If I keep on deceiving myself and deceiving everyone else, I am sure I will soon reach my limit. No. …I am at my limit already, but I was just fooling myself. It’s only going to get harder and harder to go back.”
“Shizuki…”
“I know. …… I’m the one who’s to blame.”
“…”
“It’s my fault that I couldn’t change my inner self, only my… appearance and language. I’m the one who’s trying to change half-heartedly, and I’m the one who’s shaking up Mariko-chan and the others who get along with me…”
As she said that, Shizuki slowly hugged me.
She buried her face in my chest, holding onto my clothes as if clinging to me, her breathing trembling.
I, too, wrapped my arms around Shizuki.
“It’s all my fault…! But I’m already..mn…. having a hard timnee…. I want to be normal again…mnmn..!”
With that trembling voice, I involuntarily patted Shizuki’s back.
Even so, it wasn’t enough.
I felt like it was not enough for me or for Shizuki.
This time, I put my hands on her head and hugged her hard.
“I’m having fun…! The time I spend with you…Minai-san, and Senba-kun is really fun… and I’m happy…!”
“…Yeah”
“I thought to myself, Yes, this is what I call friends…! How I wish everyday could be like this…!“
“…I see.”
“But…! Yuka-chan, Mariko-chan and Miki-chan are all also so kind! They are very nice people! It’s just because… I’m an idiot… I’m really stupid, that’s why… I’m in this mess…!”
“I know… It’s alright.”
Shizuki started to cry this time.
Gradually, I couldn’t understand what she was saying.
But I still understood the meaning of those words.
I held Shizuki in my arms for a long time as she continued to cry.
Shizuki must have needed this kind of time.
Shizuki needed someone she could be open with, and right now, I was the only one who could do it.
“Hasumi! I’m scared…! I’m so worried! I want to escape!”
And me, too.
“…You’re right. But you’ll hang in there, right? I’m here for you. I’ll be with you….”
“…Hasumi-kun! Hasumi-kun! I’m…! I’m…!”
I wanted to help Shizuki, too.
I wanted to be there for her and support her.
That may be a selfish feeling.
But I want to.
I already know why.
I can’t pretend that I don’t know why…
After all… I…
“It’s going to be okay. Everyone will understand. You’re such a good girl.”
I can’t help but think of Shizuki…