Delivery Boy and Masked Girl - A delivery boy discovers the secret of a beautiful gal at his delivery destination. - Chapter 24: Life And Bewilderment.
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Life And Bewilderment.
After Shizuki stopped crying, we both walked side by side towards her apartment.
Carrying the delivery bag of Eats and Eats on my back and pushing my cycle, we slowly made our way through the night streets.
Shizuki, who was standing next to me, was walking steadily, but she kept her head down and didn’t say anything.
I am confused.
Should I say something or not?
I’m not sure If I’m good enough to tell her about this.
….No.
Maybe I’m not really lost.
Even if Shizuki rejects me for saying it, I can’t help but say it.
In fact, I might even say that I’ve put up with it well until now.
“…Shizuki.”
“……”
“Are you sure you still are going to do this?”
“…Ehh?”
Shizuki looked up with a surprised expression on her face.
“You’re straining yourself to look good, to fit into someone else’s image.”
“….”
“I don’t really know what kind of person you are, but it seems to me that you’re trying very hard to act your way through school. Of course, I’m not saying that’s wrong. Neither I’m supposed to tell you that, but if it makes you feel bad or gives you a hard time, like today, then…”
“…..”
Every time I said something, Shizuki’s expression became more and more distorted.
It was as if everything that was holding her down was gradually crumbling away.
“… Isn’t there a different way of life?”
“There isn’t…”
But then Shizuki clenched her fists.
She gritted her teeth and seemed to be pushing down the emotions that were about to break down.
“There is no such thing… Please leave that matter… alone….”
“…I see.”
That was Shizuki’s answer.
It can’t be helped.
If she says so, then she must be right.
I’m sure there are reasons why Shizuki can’t or doesn’t want to be who she is.
I’m not so insensitive as to get involved in that much.
“I’m sorry….”
“No. I’m the one who’s at fault. I’m sorry.”
“No ….I’m really happy that Hasumi-kun is getting along with me like thi… But I’m still…”
“…Okay, I get it. Forget about what I said.”
“…How could I forget…?”
After saying that, Shizuki let out a deep, deep sigh.
With that, I let out a long sigh as well.
Before I knew it, the temperature seemed to have dropped so low that fog was coming off my breath.
“And thank you…for saving me. Thank you for saving my life.”
“Don’t thank me, just be really careful. you were lucky this time, but next time you might not be so.”
“….Yes.”
If I hadn’t been there.
I’m not trying to be smug, but I can’t help but imagine that.
I wonder if Shizuki would have been able to shake that guy off on her own.
If she couldn’t, what would have happened after that?
Even I am creeped out by this, so Shizuki herself must be beyond that.
“….Hasumi-kun.”
“….?”
“In fact, I was …confessed to a while ago.”
As soon as I heard those words, I felt myself being hit by a strange blur again.
I shook my head to drown it out, and then I asked.
“…The guy from earlier?””
“No, no…! He’s good friends with Yuka-chan and the others. I’ve never really talked to him before”
Shizuki’s voice was a little brighter.
However, her expression itself was still stiff.
But why is Shizuki talking about this now?
“He told me he liked me… I was happy at the time.”
“…And?”
“…But I was still curious, so I asked him, ‘What do you like about me?'”
Shizuki smiled embarrassedly as she said this.
It’s not as if she was comfortable with it, of course.
Anyway, is it normal for someone like Haruomi and Shizuki, to ask the person who confesses to them ‘What do you like about me?’
It’s a world I don’t understand.
“Then he told me I was cute and energetic and fun to talk to…”
“…Oh.”
“….And I thought to myself, this person who says he likes me. Me who is deceiving everyone like this, making things up and acting cheerful.”
“……”
“It’s a luxury, isn’t it? I made him to like me… even though it was my fault… and I felt depressed for it. I really don’t know what’s wrong with me… I think I am a disgusting person…”
“…That’s why you said no to him?”
“…Exactly.”
Before I knew it, we had reached the front of the apartment.
Shizuki, who had been standing next to me the whole time, stepped forward to face me.
“…But sometimes I think. I wonder if I’ll ever be able to show my true self to the one I love.
Ehehe” Shizuki laughed in a weak voice, laughing as if he was about to cry.
“I’m sorry…. I told you to leave the matter alone, and now I am saying this to you…”
Turning away from me, Shizuki climbed the small stairs to the entrance.
From a slightly higher place, he looked down at us and said.
“Thank you for waking me to home. And for asking about me…”
With her back to me, Shizuki grabbed the handle of the glass door.
But I unconsciously shouted at her back.
“Shizuki!
“….Eh?”
While only turning her neck toward me, Shizuki makes a short sound.
This time, without the slightest hesitation, I said.
“I don’t know anything about what you value or what your priorities are. But I like you better when you’re relaxed, natural, and sober than when you’re trying to fit in with everyone else…”
“….uh!?”
Shizuki turned her face away from me vigorously.
She then pulled the door and disappeared into the apartment.
She didn’t look at me once then she turned at the corner and I couldn’t see her anymore.
Straddling my cross bike, I rode down the long hill without pedalling.
When I looked at the sky, constellations whose names I didn’t know were shining faintly.
I was as meddlesome as ever.
But I’ve come to the point where I don’t take my relationship with Shizuki lightly enough to part ways with her without saying something at a time like this.