Chapter 6 Part 6 – Our Night – Part 6

Translator: Chaos

Editor: Riciel

“I’ll be fine.”

When Riko told me that, my mind went blank.

“Why…? I mean… we’re married, but we’re not dating…”

“…Yes. … Even if we’re not… it’s ok…”

There was no way I could be happy about something like that. My body and head, which had become hot from all the things that had happened, were rapidly cooling down.

Because, Riko was forcing herself to smile, with a face that said it wasn’t fine at all.

There was no way that I could be the only one feeling happy.

I just couldn’t understand Riko’s feelings.

Are you saying you want to do it even if we’re not in a relationship?

No, look at Riko’s expression.

She’s definitely not saying that out of sexual curiosity.

So you figured you’d have to take me on as an apology for making me so horny…?

No, no. That’s impossible.

No matter how devoted she was, she would never think that way.

What makes you think it’s okay to do something like that with another guy when there is another guy you like in the first place?

….. No way, Riko’s favorite guy might be me…

For a moment, the idea crossed my mind, but I hurriedly shook my head. I was the exact opposite of the person Riko had said she liked. How could I possibly think that the handsome guy Riko liked might be me? I was so self-conscious that I was surprised at myself.

“A man who thinks he’s liked immediately like that is really unpleasant.”

The traumatic words long ago mocked me again.

… I guess I haven’t learned anything from my past mistakes.

But then why did Riko think it was okay to do it with me, who she didn’t even like…

I don’t think it was a result of her being overly eager to do anything for me…?

I don’t know for sure, but I think I’ll better tell her not to do that.

“Riko, you can’t think that it’s okay to do something just because the other person wants it. Riko doesn’t want it, so it definitely isn’t a good idea.”

“Ah..! No, it’s not…! I want it too…!”

“Eh?”

“Ah…”

As if in a panic, Riko pressed her mouth with her hands. But the spilled words would not return.

You wanted… to do that with me…?

So now, the option to have sex, which I had wished to do because of my increased vitality, was back.

But her expression at that time looked so lonely…

I’m not going to lie, I’m overstretching my limits.

I feel like steam is coming out of my head.

That’s enough.

Let’s just ask it straightforwardly.

“You mean you like someone else, but you still want to do it with me?”

“… Uwaa…”

“Why is that?”

“T-t-that’s…”

“Because you’re interested in that kind of thing?”

“……! Y-yeah…! Yeah!!””

……!?

Riko, who until then had looked like a cornered little animal, suddenly looked as if she had finally found a helping hand.

But anyway, I got the answer I wanted to know.

Riko was a surprisingly naughty girl, and was curious to do something like that.

Shamefully, my body started to heat up again.

I’m such a simpleton.

But I can’t just jump on it gladly.

After taking a deep breath to calm myself down, I sat upright in front of Riko. Riko sat back down as well, and kept a straight face.

“I’m sure you’ll regret it if you don’t do it with someone you feel the same way about.”

“But I’ve been rejected…”

“If you like him so much, can’t you tell him again?”

I really don’t want you to do that even if it kills me, but I had to say it for Riko’s sake. It’s not about what I want, it’s about Riko.

But Riko shook her head helplessly at my words.

“I can’t tell him how I feel anymore.”

“Why?”

“Because when I said something like that to him before, he disappeared… from my life. I don’t want to lose him like that again. …”

“……”

I looked at Riko, who looked like she was about to cry, and felt helplessly frustrated.

Riko, why do you like that kind of guy…?

If it were me, I would never let Riko look at me like this.

Maybe now, if I use the space in Riko’s heart, I can touch her.

Maybe this is what men in this world call a set meal.

But I definitely didn’t want to touch Riko in this situation.

Because I like Riko.

I can’t use the girl I love just to satisfy my own desires.

I’m dying of wanting to touch Riko.

I don’t want to satisfy my desires, I want to communicate my love to her.

If somebody somewhere looked into my mind, they’re going to laugh at me and say what a non-motivated virgin I am…

There is a possibility that I will never have a chance with a girl in the future, and when I reach forty or so, I will have the unseemly regret that I should have made a move on her instead of thinking about it.

But I’m eighteen years old now, and I can’t help but think of Riko with such pure feelings.

Fortunately, Riko is okay with being touched by me if she is desperate.

I know it’s a bit presumptuous of me, but that’s the extent to which I’m a part of Riko’s life.

The possibility is not zero.

If that’s the case, then what am I supposed to do?

I want to make some effort and make Riko fall in love with me…!

I used to think that if she likes someone, I can’t help it, but maybe the person Riko likes is a jerk.

I can’t let a man like that fall in love with her.

Because I want Riko to be happy.

I don’t know if I can do that, but I’m sure it’s better than that bastard…!

“I don’t know how you can conveniently assume that people like you. It’s funny.”

The girl from the past scoffed at me in my head.