Buying a Weeping Girl Under the Wintry Sky, and Making Her Too Happy. - Chapter 58: A Resolution.
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A Resolution.
“…Miyu”
“….I’m sorry.”
‘Why are you apologizing, Miyu? It’s all my fault… I was only talking about myself and didn’t think about you properly…”
“T-That’s not true.”
“I know right. You were all about yourself.”
“!? Grandmother…?”
“Kazuya. What do you think the first thing your girlfriend did when she came to our house? What do you think your girlfriend came to this house to do in the first place?”
What did Miyu do when she came to my parents’ house? Why did Miyu came to my grandparents’ house? Miyu ran away from the house…
“She came to talk about my school tri-”
“While kneeling down on the ground.”
“!?”
Miyu did so? W-why… Is she saying she got down on her knees for my school trip? I honestly don’t understand what she means…
“I know you’re probably thinking the wrong thing, but she didn’t get down on her knees to ask for a favor, she got down on her knees to apologize to her grandmother.”
“…Miyu apologizing to grandma?”
“I couldn’t keep my promise to my grandmother, she said. She said she would always be by your side and support you, but she ran out of the house.”
“!?”
Why… Miyu, why you… It’s all my fault… Why are you so…
“And don’t you recognize it?”
Then, my grandma showed me an envelope. It was nothing familiar. That envelope was…
“…100,000 yen.”
“That’s right. That’s the 100,000 yen you spent when you said you were going to buy her. She gave me 100,000 yen to take you on a school trip.”
I couldn’t say anything else… I was only thinking about me, but Miyu was thinking about me all the time. I was happy, but at the same time I felt crushed with guilt…
“After saying that, she was going to leave the house. She asked me to take good care of Kazuya-kun. As expected, I stopped her from leaving.”
“Hey, Miyu.”
“…What?”
“Is everything Grandma says true?”
“…Yes.”
I knew. I knew the answer without having to ask Miyu. Because it was Miyu. I knew Miyu was thinking about me first. I was also thinking about Miyu first. I thought I was thinking about her. But Miyu and I were not ready for that.
“…You’ve got to be kidding me.”
“Kazuya-kun?”
“Don’t play with me!”
Saying that, I punched myself in the cheek as hard as I could.
“…..”
“Kazuya-kun!?”
I wonder if I just cut the inside of my mouth, and a peculiar blood-like aftertaste spreads through my mouth. Miyu seemed surprised at my sudden eccentricity, but Grandma kept quiet and looked at me.
“Miyu.”
“W-What?”
“I’m really truly sorry!”
Saying this, I got down on my knees and slammed my forehead on the floor. I slammed my forehead so hard into the floor that it honestly hurt so much I thought my forehead might crack, but this pain was a sanction I gave myself to solidify my resolve, to blow away all my naive thoughts. It is a pain I must never forget.
“I’m a selfish, glib, really shitty person.”
“That’s not true.”
“That’s how I’m! I will never forgive myself for what I did this time! But I want to be a man worthy of you from now on, even though I’m such a selfish, shitty and powerless man! I will spare no effort to become a man worthy of you, Miyu! So! Please give me one more chance! Please give me a chance to make you truly happy!”
I am aware that I am saying something I find convenient. Miyu might have forgiven me even if I didn’t say anything. She might have been appalled at me for saying such a thing. But this is the one thing I truly vow to do, no matter how things end up.
“Kazuya-kun. Yo… You are not as bad as you think you are, okay?”
“That’s not true.”
“Yes, I do. I think so myself, and Kazuya can never forgive himself, can he?”
“Yeah…”
“That’s why, I’m going to forgive you, Kazuya-kun. Even if anyone else says they won’t forgive you, I will forgive you. And you say you are not worthy of me, but to me I’m not only worthy of you, I’m a waste for you. But Kazuya-kun, you won’t admit that, will you?”
“Yhh….”
“So, I will be with you until you, Kazuya-kun, can recognize yourself someday. I will show you that Kazuya-kun is a great person. I’m the one who knows best that Kazuya-kun is a great person.”
“…Miyu”
“So I’ll give you a chance. The chance to make me happy. Because my happiness is your happiness, kazuya-kun…”
“ Let’s be happy together. “
I took Miyu’s hand as she reached out to me. My face is a mess of tears and a runny nose. But I take Miyu’s hand firmly while looking at her face. This is not a hand that I can easily take. I have to be prepared to take her hand.