Buying a Weeping Girl Under the Wintry Sky, and Making Her Too Happy. - Chapter 55: Selfishness.

Selfishness.

It was already two weeks into my second year of high school. One day during the morning homeroom, my homeroom teacher’s mood was different from usual. Teacher wore a heavy atmosphere as if the teacher was about to say something important.

“You are all officially second-year high school seniors now, and I’d like to ask you a few questions about your senior year. What do you have in mind when you think of being a sophomore in high school?”

“A school trip!!”

When the teacher asked us, the excited student answered enthusiastically. He was probably on the soccer team. Must be. Because he seems to be a cheerful person. I have already decided that the soccer club is my idea of a cheerful person. I don’t know if I am prejudiced, but I don’t think I am wrong. I don’t know if he really belongs to the soccer club. I don’t even remember his name yet.

“Yes. That’s right! That school trip destination has been decided!”

“ “ “ YESS!!! “ “ “

“Your school trip destination is… We have decided on Hokkaido!”

“ “ “ WOOOWOW!!!!! “ “ “

What? Why? This was my impression when I heard where the school trip was going to be. Because the school trip is in June, right? If you’re going to Hokkaido, wouldn’t it be normal to want to go when it’s snowing?　

For Hokkaido people, snow is just depressing, but for people like us who live in an area where it snows but rarely piles up, the mere sight of snow in Hokkaido is enough to move us. Wherever the school trip is, it has nothing to do with me.

“Yes, everyone please calm down! So, from now on, every Wednesday in our 6th period homeroom class, we will be doing research related to the school trip and deciding on our groups!”

With these words, today’s morning homeroom ended. The rest of the day at school went by without incident. I would like to say that Miyu and I go home together since we don’t have part-time jobs today, but we can’t let it be known that we live in the same house, so we leave a little space between us and go home separately. By the time I arrived home, Miyu had already arrived home because she left the classroom earlier than me.

“Welcome home.”

“I’m back.”

“So we’re going on a school trip to Hokkaido.”

“I wonder why we’re going to Hokkaido in June.”

“I know right, if we were going in June, Okinawa might have been a better choice than Hokkaido.”

“Okinawa certainly seems more appropriate than Hokkaido.”

“Still, I’m looking forward to the school trip.”

“…….”

“Kazuya-Kun?”

What should I do…? I wasn’t going to go on a school trip. The reason is simply because it costs a lot of money. I promised my grandmother that I would pay for everything except the school fees, so of course I would have to pay for the school trip by myself. I guess if I told my grandma, she would pay for the school trip, but in my mind, that would be a different promise, and I couldn’t agree to that. In fact, I have skipped some off-campus events in the past.

The question now is whether or not I should tell Miyu about it. If I tell Miyu that I don’t want to go, she won’t go on the school trip for sure. But I want Miyu to go on the school trip. It would be too much of a waste for her to choose not to go on a school trip just to accommodate me.

The most important thing to remember is that she can still enjoy our school trip even if I am not there. If I’m going to have to tell her sooner or later anyway, I might as well tell her now…

“I…”

“Yeah?”

“I’m not going on a school trip.”

“… What? Why not?”

“Well, this is my personal problem, so don’t worry about it. I want Miyu to enjoy the school trip.”

“I don’t want to. I’m not going to go if you don’t go Kazuya-kun.”

I knew it would happen… But this is my selfishness. I don’t want Miyu to go along with my selfishness and ruin the school trip.

“I’m not going because I don’t want to go. So I want you to go and have fun.”

“I don’t care about that! If you won’t go, I won’t go either.”

“No, but…”

“If you want me to go, then you should come too, Kazuya-kun.”

I really don’t know what to do… I really don’t want Miyu to miss the school trip because of me, but if I want her to go, she wants me to come too. I’m not sure how much I can afford to pay for the school trip, even if I work part time.

“But you have already paid, haven’t you?”

“I don’t care what I have paid them.”

“But money is important, right?”

“That’s true, but…”

It is common knowledge that money is important, but it is only common knowledge, and few people actually understand the exact value of money. Especially those who grew up in wealthy countries or in wealthy families.

If everyone understood the value of money, there would be no such thing as entertainment facilities in the world. They would only spend money on the bare necessities.

Miyu and I are not this extreme, but I am confident that we understand the value of money better than most high school students and working adults.

But… I care more about you than money… Kazuya-kun.”

“And the one you care about wants you to go and have fun.”

“….”

I really feel like I’m going to hate myself. I’m really happy that Miyu said that I’m more important than money. But I’m using Miyu’s feelings for my own selfishness. All for the sake of my selfishness of not going on the school trip.

“….I donno.”

“Ehh?”

“I donno!!”

“!?”

Miyu was crying.

“I don’t know what you are thinking or what is important to you anymore! Kazuya-kun!”

Saying that, Miyu ran out of the house. I tried to run after her, but my legs wouldn’t move. I didn’t know what to say to Miyu. It was definitely me who made Miyu cry this time. I made the person I promised to make happy cry… It was also because of my own selfishness…

“Haha …I really am an irresponsible guy…”

Miyu never came home that day.