Beyond The Bad End - Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Maki’s POV

Originally, I planned to confess my feelings to Haru after the high school entrance exam.

However, as the exam approached, I found myself consumed by my own negative thoughts, I got overwhelmed by my own anxiety. Because I was desperate to get rid of that anxiety, I ended up confessing to Haru in his room during the New Year holiday.

Probably, from that day onward.

My luck had been getting better and better.

Before that, my mom got divorced because my dad was having an affair with another woman behind her back. I had to suddenly say goodbye to my friends and move out, the apartment I moved into was even smaller and more rundown that the one I lived in before. At the new school, I couldn’t fit in at all, because every time I spoke in a different dialect, my friends would giggle or laugh at me. I couldn’t make any friends at all.

On top of that, mom had been working all the time since her divorce, she didn’t seem to care much about the house or me anymore.

Haru-kun’s mother, Natsumi-san, and everyone in the family were very kind to me.

However, no matter how hard I tried, I still felt like I was out of place. Even though everyone was around me, I still felt uncomfortable and lonely.

All I had was Haru-kun.

I have loved you since I was a little girl, Haru-kun.

My first love.

Unlike when you were a child, you seemed to be more calm, shy and a bit blunt.

Haru-kun loved cooking at the restaurant more than anything else, it was really cool to see the way he cooked like the adults.

On the day I confessed my feelings to Haru-kun, he immediately responded to my confession.

We became lovers and my first love came true.

I was so happy that I immediately told my mom about it that night. She was really happy as well and she went straight to Haru-kun’s house. Perhaps they were having a drink at Haru-kun’s house talking about me and Haru-kun.

After that, my relationship with Haru-kun was going smoothly. Haru-kun told me that he loves me for the first time and we had our first kiss.

He also successfully got into the high school he wanted to.

I was anxious about high school life, but I managed to overcome my dialect barrier and I even made friends without Haru-kun around. I got off a good start.

Every morning, I went to school with Haru-kun side by side riding our bicycles. On the way home, I would stop by someplace and hang around with friends, and on the days when the restaurant was closed, I would meet up with Haru-kun and go on dates.

As things started to go well, it became easy to take it all for granted. I began to want things that I thought was luxurious before. I gradually became more and more greedy.

At first, it was a smartphone.

All my high school friends had them, so I wanted one as well.

I was never bullied or excluded for not having a smartphone, but I did feel inferior to them.

I talked to my mom about it and she said that she would love to let me have it, but she couldn’t afford it. Then she suggested that I get a part-time job so that I could buy it myself. My mom contacted Natsumi-san and asked her whether I could work part-time at the restaurant.

I started working part time about three to four times a week since the Golden Week.

My job at the restaurant was mainly customer service. I ate dinner there every day and I knew all the employees very well.

When I received my July paycheck, I immediately went to a cell phone store with Haru-kun. I was really excited to be able to buy a smartphone.

Haru-kun decided to buy the same model as mine, we even bought matching phone cases but in different colours.

I immediately added the contact information of my high school friends and messaged them.

I was finally able to have a smartphone, I felt like I finally can stand on the same level as everyone else around me.

The next desire that I wanted was to have my first experience with Haru-kun. I wanted to lose my virginity.

I knew that not everyone wants to do it, we were still on the first year of high school after all.

However, I couldn’t wait to do it, I had a boyfriend after all.

Moreover, I didn’t want Haru-kun, who was attending a different school than mine, to become attracted to someone else.

I was extremely embarrassed and nervous, and my heart was throbbing as I talked to Haru-kun about it, but as he always does, he said yes to my request.

We couldn’t do it at the first day, it was too painful, but on the next day, we finally were able to do it.

The joy to give Haru-kun my first time was greater than the pain of losing my virginity.

After some bad lucks during my early teens, I was able to enjoy my life in my late teens.

Everything was going well.

It was all thanks to Haru-kun and his family, but I had come to forget all that.

I shouldn’t have gotten carried away and I should have carefully protected the happiness that was in my hands.

I should have lived a diligent high school life like you, Haru-kun.

I let go of Haru-kun who gave me all that happiness, and at the same time, I lost all the happiness that was on in front of me.