Beyond The Bad End - Chapter 15

Chapter 15

Maki’s POV

I thought that after the Obon holiday, Sudo-kun’s mother would go back to their hosue and Sudo-kun would finally let me go, but I was wrong.

Sudo-kun’s mother was working part-time during the weekdays, whenever she went for work, there was no one home at Sudo-kun’s house even after the Obon holiday.

By that time, I was no longer crying when Sudo-kun and me were doing it, I couldn’t tell that if was just starting to get used to it or if I just already gave up to do anything.

I even couldn’t go out on a date with Haru-kun on our holiday.

I woke up in the morning and looked at the calendar, I realized it was Haru-kun’s day off. I hurriedly contacted Sudo-kun and told him I couldn’t come to his house that day. However, he only replied me with one word, ‘Money’. I had no choice but to go to his house again that day.

I got paid for my part-time job, but since I had been cutting back on my shift since July, I got paid less than usual. After paying my smartphone bill, I only had very little money left over.

I thought about borrowing money from Haru-kun, but I knew that if I want to borrow some money, I would need a good reason to convince him, and most importantly, I couldn’t bring myself to lie and deceive Haru-kun.

As I was about to go to Sudo-kun’s house, Haru-kun called me.

‘What are you planning to do today?’

‘I already have plans with my friends, sorry.’

‘Eh?’

‘……’

I couldn’t bring myself to say anything more to Haru-kun because I felt so guilty.

Haru-kun went silent for a while.

‘I see.’

Haru-kun forgave me.

Haru-kun’s kindness made my heart hurts even more.

‘I’m sorry, I’m really sorry! I promise that I will spend some time with you next time.’

I apologized to Haru-kun desperately.

Then, I went to Sudo-kun’s house, as he opened the door,

‘You said you can’t come today, but you’re here, aren’t you? hahaha.’

I was really mad and frustrated with Sudo-kun, but I couldn’t do anything.

Then, on the day before our next holiday together, I desperately begged Sudo-kun to not make me come to his house the next day. Suddenly, he came up with some conditions.

‘Well then, do tomorrow’s work today as well. I know, do it with your mouth. You’ve at least done it to your boyfriend before, right?’

‘I’ve never done it before…’

‘Really? That’s great! You’re going to practice on me then.’

I had learned the hard way that no matter how many times I resisted him, I couldn’t say no to his words. I told myself that I had to do it because I needed to keep my promise to Haru-kun the next day.

The next morning, when I was showering before meeting Haru-kun, I felt like Sudo-kun’s disgusting scent was all over my body and mouth, I washed my body and brushed my teeth over and over again. I had to clean my body before meeting Haru-kun, I had to get rid of that disgusting scent.

But when I finally got to meet Haru-kun, I was afraid that disgusting smell would still linger all over my body and Haru-kun would find out about it. So, I lied to Haru-kun.

‘I got my period this morning. I’m sorry, we can’t have sex today.’

Despite my lie, Haru-kun didn’t get angry with me, instead, he was concerned about my health and suggested me to rest in his room instead of going out.

However, being together alone in a small room, I was afraid that Haru-kun would smell that disgusting smell. I was so scared that I couldn’t even hug him, let alone kiss him. I pretended to be in a bad mood and tried my best to avoid him coming close to me.

In the end, I couldn’t stand it any longer, I was too afraid. Around noon, I went back home saying,

‘I’m not feeling well, so I’ll go back home now.’

When I returned home, I covered the futon over my head and cried out loud.

Yesterday, I desperately asked that person to let me free today. I endured the humiliation, I even did something I had never done to Haru-kun before. But when I met Haru-kun, my heart was filled with nothing but pain and regret.

From that day on, I stopped taking care of myself, I didn’t want to do anything anymore.

I no longer wore make-up when I go out. I only ate once a day in the morning.

I couldn’t think about anything during the act with Sudo-kun, and I even found myself moaning without realizing it.

I couldn’t even bring myself to go work part-time, so I just started skipping it.

Since my mom would tell me to go work part-time whenever I was home, I brought my schoolwork to a fast food restaurant, bought a drink and spent time alone doing my homework until late at night.

Even though I was mentally exhausted because I had to do whatever Sudo-kun said during the day, I couldn’t sleep at all when I came home late at night. I didn’t get enough sleep for several days. On the first morning of the second semester, I even overslept until Haru-kun knocked at the door to my room.