Beyond The Bad End - Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Haru’s POV

“Haru-kun…I’m really sorry.”

“……”

The one who is crying and apologizing in front of me is Maki, my girlfriend.

For the past month, I’ve been trying to decide what do to, I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t do anything at all, but finally, I have decided.

Heartbreak is a common thing.

It’s a daily occurrence.

Even getting cheated on is a daily occurrence.

People experience heartbreak at least once in their lifetime.

But still, it really hurts.

I didn’t want to believe it, but now, I am aware that my girlfriend who was really close to me, really dear to me, is now very distant like a figure I can never reach.

My girlfriend is just right in front of me, but it feels like she is beyond my reach.

When I learned that my girlfriend is having an affair with another guy, the feel of disgust and despair mixed together in my heart. I can’t touch, or even make an eye contact with her.

Since I learned about Maki’s affair, my attitude toward her has changed a lot.

This morning, Maki asked me to come to the park after school because she wants to talk about something with me.

Finally, the time to talk about this has come, huh?

I guess this is farewell.

I thought Maki doesn’t know about me knowing her affair.

But maybe because I’m not acting like myself lately, she must’ve found out about it.

“Haru-kun, please break up with me.”

“Hah…can I ask why did you say so?”

I asked, trying by best to act tough and calm.

“The reason is…it seems you are having a hard time with me lately…I think you’re acting cold towards me…”

“Why do you think so…?”

“…because we haven’t spent much time together lately, and you don’t seem well too.”

Maki, are you really going to lie to me like that? Are you still trying to hide the fact that you are cheating on me with another guy?

The reason why we haven’t spent much time together lately is because you are having an affair behind my back, Maki.

The reason why I don’t look well lately is because since I found out about your affair, I’ve been suffering and depressed.

I want to say all those things to her, but the words just won’t come out.

As I stay silent and don’t say anything to her words,

“Haru-kun…I’m really sorry.”

Maki started crying.

Looking at Maki’s messed up hair as she lowers her head, I feel angry.

“Why are you crying? I’m the one who is supposed to cry. You told me how hard it was for you and for your mother because of what your father did, you must know how painful it is to be cheated on, but despite all that, you did it to me. The person I love, the person who is dear to me, cheated son me.”

After me and Maki broke up, I won’t be able to say anything to her anymore. I should say all I want to say to her right now at this moment.

“Ughh—!”

However, when I’m about to say the name of the person Maki is having an affair with, I suddenly feel very nauseous, I can’t help but to throw up at the spot.

Maki cheated on me, dumped me, and she even tried to hide the fact that she is having an affair behind my back. Even though I tried to act though and calm, I ended up looking disgusting.

I’m really pathetic.

Maki is patting me on the back, I can’t bring myself to look up to her, so I brush her off without saying a single word.

Why were you patting my back?

Is it because of pity or guilt?

What difference does it make anyway.

For my immature 17-years old self, this is too painful to accept.

Then, I leave the park without saying a single word to Maki, reminiscing our memories together.