As A Result of Trying To Live An Erotic Slow-Life, I Have Become The Underground Ruler of This Upside-Down Otherworld - Chapter 58: Logic and Cowardice

Chapter 58: Logic and Cowardice

Towa POV

Goshujin-sama, you’re unfair.

“Ah…♡”

A kiss like a greeting.

That alone gets my body and heart ready to welcome you. Even a rare magic stone couldn’t heat me up this fast.

“What’s up?”

“U… I-I don’t know.”

How dare you make my body like this—I shoot him a protesting look, only to be met with a gentle smile.

My protest melts into pure happiness.

I want more touch, more.

Shamefully, I crave what’s next, I expect it.

“I know.”

Oh, you see right through me, don’t you?

Your hand moves without hesitation to the spot I wanted touched.

“N♡ Unya…♡”

You’re touching my chest.

I know that, so why are your fingers on my neck?

“A, fu…♡ Nnu♡”

It feels so good there too.

The lightest touch, making my skin prickle faintly.

“Nn, Go-Goshujin-sama, nyau♡”

“Hm? What’s that, Towa? Doesn’t feel good?”

I shake my head reflexively.

No way it doesn’t feel good—if you touch me, anywhere feels amazing.

But, but…

“Nnn!?”

A sudden jolt shoots through me.

There, that’s it—that’s the pleasure I wanted, my eyes widening.

“A… fu, a…♡”

My mind, melted by bursting pleasure, wonders when my clothes came off.

Realizing how lost I was in your caresses, I feel a bit embarrassed.

“Towa. Show me your face.”

“N-No, Goshujin-sama, i-it’s, embarrassing.”

I’ve shown you my pleasure-drunk face so many times, but I still hide when it’s like this.

No matter how long, no matter how many times you hold me, I can’t get used to it.

In the end, I’ll stop thinking about hiding, sticking out my tongue, panting shamelessly.

“No helping it…”

“Goshu…? Nhiu♡”

W-Wait, you’re licking my armpit!?

That place, it’s d-dirty—

“—Delicious.”

“Hanyu…♡”

Just those words stop my reflex to close up.

No, I want you to lick more, so I open wider, making it easier.

“U♡ Tickl… nya♡ Ua♡ Pe, pero pero, feels good♡”

From my armpit to my arm, up to my fingertips.

It’s like grooming—now that I think about it, beautiful beastmen used to do this.

“A♡ Fu♡ U, uun… Goshujin-sama, Goshujin-sama♡”

That’s right, to you, I’m the best woman.

Ugly or beautiful doesn’t matter—I’m the best.

“A, a, a… I, love, Goshujin-sama♡ That, love, love it…”

You lick up my body.

Tracing the curve of my chest, circling with your tongue… to the nubs screaming with hardness.

“A, u…”

“Hm? Towa?”

Oh, you’re so mean.

I want you to touch, to lick. Why? Why?

I thought it was coming, I was expecting it.

“Goshujin-sama, you’re mean.”

“No idea what you mean.”

Unfair, so unfair, Goshujin-sama.

You know. You know exactly what I want on this bed, every detail, rolling me in the palm of your hand.

“N-Nip, ples.”

“Hm?”

“L-Lick, I want you to lick, t-touch… my nipples… u♡ I-I want you to tease them, a lot.”

You were waiting for me to say it, weren’t you?

You grin, like a prank worked perfectly, an innocent smile.

“Well done.”

“A… n♡”

It’s like you’re saying the real thing starts now, sealing the greeting with a kiss.

※

My body’s a melted mess.

It feels like everything’s dissolved, but my mind’s still working.

“Goshu♡ Goshuj, sha♡ N-No, more, Towa, Towa’s♡”

Really.

You’re so unfair, Goshujin-sama.

How long have I been wanting that hot, strong thing inside me? The more I want it, the more you hold back.

“I’m not good at guessing, Towa. You gotta tell me clearly, or I won’t know.”

“Ua, u, u…”

I know, I know.

I can’t easily say what I want.

In bed like this, or any other time.

I’m always scared.

“Towa, tell me clearly.”

What if you find out I’m a greedy, shameful woman?

What if you learn all the dark things I’ve done behind my calm face?

What if you think my heart’s as ugly as my body… what then?

“No need for logic, Towa. I’ll take it all.”

Logic.

That’s right, I always pile on logic to protect my true feelings.

I tell myself giving in to instinct or desire is foolish.

Things are going well now, so this is fine.

If I want more happiness, it’s a thorny path—some voice inside says that.

But…

“Goshujin-sama.”

I spread my legs.

The hottest, most melted, gooey part.

“P-Please.”

“What?”

“Your, strong, splendid… wonderful cock-sama…”

I grab my thighs, spreading them wide, wider.

Ah, the musky scent of my womanhood wafts up.

Your eyes are on my place.

Wanting you to look more, embarrassed and not wanting you to, my hands tremble.

Still…

“Just putting it in is enough?”

“A, u…♡”

You want me to say it, don’t you, Goshujin-sama?

No, this is training. To make me voice my desires, to teach me it’s okay to say them.

“Tell me, Towa. I might be clueless, I might not know anything, but I truly want to cherish you all.”

Is it okay, then?

No logic, just speaking my heart’s desires.

Can I entrust everything to you, Goshujin-sama?

“…Please.”

“Hm?”

“Y-Your, seed, please!♡ T-Towa, Towa wants! To conceive, to carry your child!♡ Fugyu!?”

The moment I say it.

“Well done… I’m happy, Towa.”

“A…♡ A…♡”

The world explodes white.

“I, a, i…♡”

Overwhelming pleasure, a pressure in my belly.

It’s almost painful, but my womb pulses kyun kyun.

“A, fu♡ Goshuji, Goshujin, sama♡ Move♡ Move it♡”

My womb’s begging for your seed.

Hurry, hurry, it wants to drink it, to hold it.

Because I said it, maybe.

In my mind, it’s you and me. And a child between us.

“A, aaaa♡ Aauuu♡”

That vision, and you—I give everything to it.

※

“Towa, you okay?”

“…N, a… e, hau, nya… Goshujin, sama?”

Consciousness floats back.

My body’s warm… a bath?

“Sorry, went overboard. Couldn’t leave you all sticky, so I took the liberty of washing you.”

“N-No, that’s fine… huh? Washing?”

You washed me yourself!?

Ugh, Towa, why’d you pass out at a time like this!

To be cleaned by you, what a perfect… no, what a bother!

“S-Sorry.”

“Nah, my bad. Your skin felt amazing, by the way.”

I feel your chest against my back.

Hearing those words from above, my face in the water’s reflection is bright red.

I feel bad, but being in the bath together like this is so comforting.

“Hey, Towa.”

“Y-Yes… n.”

You hug me from behind.

My body’s warm, but my heart’s warmer.

“I’m gonna try a bit harder.”

“Try… harder?”

You’re already trying so hard—what else could you push for?

“Yeah. You said, right? You don’t want your kid to live the life you did.”

“…Yes. I did say that.”

Treated like trash until I met Eld-sama.

Not knowing true warmth until I met you.

I’m fulfilled now, overflowing even.

But that doesn’t erase what came before.

“It’s not like I can do much, but you all… you’re preparing for something, right? For a happy… no, a fulfilled future. So I’ve gotta do my part. I want to aim for that future too.”

“Goshujin-sama…”

Your hug tightens a bit.

What’s the face of the man behind me?

“I’m no savior. I’m not the guy or the vessel to save or flip the world. But I want to make the people by my side happy.”

That’s not true—I almost interrupt.

Oh, I see, that’s it.

“Goshujin-sama.”

“Yeah?”

“I… we, definitely have faces you don’t know. Things we’re hiding.”

“…Yeah.”

Wanting to help someone—you feel that too.

“That’s why, Goshujin-sama, you choose the path. The best we can imagine is surely far from the best you’ll seize.”

“…”

I don’t know how you lived before.

What thoughts you carried before reaching Eld-sama’s diner, I can’t know.

“We’re your family.”

You’re a bit bad at showing those feelings.

Maybe it’s cowardice—you tell me to speak clearly, but you’re the worst at it.

Oh, maybe that’s why.

That’s why you want us to say it, to voice it.

“Even without a marriage contract, without a mark between us. I… we want to stay your family, no matter what.”

“Towa…”

From here on.

Maybe one day I’ll reveal everything to you.

If the Arius Family takes shape, maybe that won’t be needed.

Either way.

“That I, that we… love you, are in love with you, Goshujin-sama. That’ll never change.”

That’s the unshakable truth.

…We love you.

A bit unfair, a bit mean. But the one and only best master in this world.