I Lost Everything

I had a girlfriend I had been dating for a long time.

We met in high school, and from then on, we had been together for seven years.

I am Yasumura Ryoma. She is Takai Unma.

We joined the same club, our hobbies matched, we hit it off, I felt a strong sense of familiarity, it seemed like fate, and from there, we quickly grew close; it did not take long to start dating.

I truly loved her. I thought I would marry her and live happily ever after.

“Hey, I love you, Ryoma.”

“I love you too, Unma.”

“I love you, Ryoma.”

“I love you too, Unma.”

I adored the way she threw straight love words at me. I always responded with all my love in return.

“Hey, Ryoma, does this suit me?”

“Yeah, it suits you perfectly.”

I also loved how she always worried about her clothes.

“Ryoma, you prefer bigger breasts, right?”

“Huh? Why do you ask that?”

“Because mine are small…”

“Size doesn’t matter. I love your breasts.”

Her worrying about her small breasts was unbearably cute, and I loved that too.

During sex, I lavished a lot of love on Unma’s modest breasts. I kept loving them with all my might to erase her complex.

“Ryoma, I want you to look only at me…”

“Of course. You’re all I see.”

I loved her jealousy too. To keep Unma from feeling anxious, I showered her with love words over and over, persistently.

I loved everything about her.

The time I spent with her was unbearably happy. We never fought, not even once, and I had no desire to. We were so compatible; I thought we could keep going smoothly forever.

I believed Unma would always be by my side in my life, that we would support each other from then on.

“I want you to break up with me.”

“―――What…!?!?!?”

Unma’s birthday was right around the corner. I had prepared an expensive present, and I was looking forward to seeing her happy face, when suddenly, those words came from Unma’s mouth.

In that instant, a chill ran down my spine, and I felt a shattering despair.

“…W-What did you just say…!?”

“Don’t make me say it again. Break up with me.”

Unfortunately, it was not a misunderstanding on my part.

“Wh… Why…?”

“I’ve found someone I like more.”

“Th-That’s… so sudden…”

We had been together for seven years. For those seven years, right up until just moments ago, Unma had never shown any sign of dissatisfaction with our relationship. I had no memory of doing anything that would make her grow tired of me.

So why…?

“…Unma… Didn’t you like me…!?”

My heart should have been raging with fury, but all I could produce was a faint, pathetic voice.

“I definitely liked you. But I found someone I like even more; that’s all.”

“Don’t screw with me… How could I accept that…”

Contrary to my boiling anger, my voice grew quieter and quieter. To make it even more pathetic, my eyes welled up with tears. Unma looked at me like that and let out a mocking laugh.

“You were really kind, and you fulfilled every wish I had. I’m grateful for that.

But you’re just kind, and that’s boring. You’re so obedient that you feel more like a pet than a boyfriend; honestly, I got tired of it.”

“W-Wait, Unma! Please rethink this!

I… I can’t do without you! If there’s anything you want me to fix, I’ll definitely fix it! So… please don’t say we should break up…!”

I begged Unma. I was so desperate that I started hyperventilating.

Smack!!!!!!

“―――…!!”

Unma slapped me across the face.

A sharp heat stung my cheek. It hurt. But the mental pain cut into my heart like a knife, more than the physical one.

“You’re such a loser; it’s seriously pathetic. You’re way too desperate and not manly at all. You’re heavy and a hassle. I really can’t stand that. I said we’re breaking up, so just accept it quietly.”

I knew I was too desperate, too unmanly. But I lost it this much because I loved Unma that deeply.

The seven years I loved Unma were not something light. I did not know what kind of man she fell for, but I was confident I would never lose in the strength of love or the depth of our bond.

So why say we should break up? Why did we have to?

“Well, that’s how it is. I never want to see your face again.

Goodbye.”

“W-Wait…!!”

Night, in the bustling streets.

The girlfriend I had been with for seven years walked away from me.

I had said countless love words to Unma so she would not feel anxious.

But that seemed to plant the impression in her that I was too desperate, unreliable, unmanly. It is important to convey words to your partner properly, but I relied too much on words.

Long ago, her love had already cooled, and I never noticed. Only mine was still burning.

I cried. There were lots of people around, staring at me like I was an idiot, but I sobbed anyway.

**

“You don’t need to come in anymore.”

“Huh… What do you mean by…”

“You’re fired.”

“…!?”

It had not even been a week since Unma dumped me. The heartbreak had not healed yet.

I got fired by my boss at work.

I had worked hard, but simply put, my skills were lacking, so I was dismissed. It was not like I was actually competent but hiding it; I was just plainly incompetent. My junior was far more capable, and I became the unnecessary one at the company.

Compared to getting dumped by Unma, I could accept it, but the timing was the absolute worst. Why right after the breakup?

And it did not end there. With my income suddenly cut off, I could not pay rent, and I got evicted from the apartment I lived in.

Dumped by my girlfriend, fired from my job, lost my home. All these misfortunes came at a bargain price in less than a month.

It was a disaster on the level where I seriously considered hanging myself. I lacked the courage to do that and was still alive, but I had become nothing more than a lump of flesh just existing.

Weekday afternoon. Having lost everything, I sat on a park bench, utterly lost.

What… should I do…? Why…? Why did it turn out like this…?

It was so miserable that all I could do was laugh. What is this? Did I do something bad? What did I do to deserve this punishment?

“Heavy and a hassle.”

The words Unma said to me. Those hit the hardest.

Am I… heavy…? Unma said she loved me so much, so I always made sure to return it… Did I say “I love you” too much, and it became a burden to her? Did I express my feelings so much that they felt shallow instead?

What should I have done? How could I have avoided this? I tried desperately to think, but it hurt too much; I could not make sense of it anymore.

It hurt so bad that if I let my guard down even a little, tears would overflow. Someone, just kill me.

“Hello, big brother.”

“…………”

“Um, are you listening? Hello.”

“…Huh, me?”

“Yes, you.”

A really cute voice came from near me, as I hung my head low.

Well, no way someone would talk to me, a guy crouching alone in the park on a weekday… I thought, but it turned out she was talking to me, and I was quite surprised.

I lifted my face and looked at the owner of the cute voice.

“―――…!?”

Sh-She… is cute… Incredibly cute.

There stood a girl in an unfamiliar uniform; she was impossibly cute.

Wearing a uniform means… she’s a high school girl, right?

Loose, fluffy long blonde hair. A gentle breeze blew, making her beautiful long hair sway softly, and the way she tucked it behind her ear was so alluring, like a scene from a movie, it nailed me in place.

And her breasts were huge. So voluptuous that any man would notice, with such assertive volume that the buttons seemed ready to pop off at any moment.

It had the destructive power to make me temporarily forget all my misery and suffering.

I could only stare, entranced, at the beauty before me.