After My First Love Who is My Classmate Became My Family, My Childhood Friend Became Really Sweet to Me - Chapter 36
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- Chapter 36 - Starry Night Sky/Yuto’s Determination/Hinata and Tsukino
Starry Night Sky/Yuto’s Determination/Hinata and Tsukino
Under the starry night sky, I was walking home with Hinata by my side.
“I had a lot of fun today. I haven’t been this excited to go to an amusement park in a long time. Hey, let’s go somewhere together again sometimes, maybe we can go to the aquarium, or the zoo.”
“That sounds great. But then it won’t be a day like today, because we’ll go there as a family.”
“…yeah, right.”
Hinata’s face which illuminated by the street lights seemed somewhat lonely.
“Hey, Yuto. Have you put your first love to an end?”
“…at least I think I’ve come to a conclusion. So Hinata don’t have to worry about anything. From tomorrow onwards, I’ll be living with Hinata as her family, as her little brother.”
Eventually we arrived at the apartment where we live and stood in front of our own apartment door.
If I go through that door, our date will be over. Hinata will go from being a classmate which I have a crush on to my family, my older sister.
Hesitantly, Hinata took out the key to our apartment.
When Hinata was opening the door, I said,
“Sorry, I can’t go home yet… I have someone I need to meet and talk to right now. Can you go home first, Hinata?”
At that moment, Hinata looked stunned.
“I see… Yeah, sure. I’ll be waiting for you, Yuto.”
“Ah… I had a really good time on today’s date. Thanks.”
“…yeah. Me too.”
Then the door closed and I slowly sighed.
The question Hinata asked me earlier stuck on my head.
‘—Have you put your first love to an end?’
I have to tell her the answer to that question.
I walked to Tsukino’s apartment and pressed the intercom, then Tsukino opened the door shortly.
Tsukino greeted me happily.
“Hey, I came to see you first, just as I promised.”
“How was your date with Hinata-san?”
“…….”
“You don’t have to look so annoyed, you know? I’m just teasing you a little. Even if you enjoyed it, there’s no way you could tell me so.”
Then Tsukino invited me to go in her apartment.
“Yuto promised me that day he would tell me his answer to my feelings after his date with Hinata, right? …then I have to say this to you again.”
Tsukino stared me with her mysterious eyes.
The look on her face was as serious as the day she confessed her feelings to me.
“I like you Yuto— I’ve liked you for a long time.”
Tsukino said that to me not as my childhood friend, but as a girl.
I had made Tsukino wait a very long time for me to answer her feelings.
I have to tell her, I had spent the date with Hinata so that we can become a true family. The answer is…
“…Tsukino, I—”
I told her clearly without any hesitation.
“I like Tsukino too—please go out with me.”
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The air-splitting silence of the night filled the room.
I was alone, lying on my bed staring at the ceiling while hugging my stuffed Fuwashiba in my arms. I had prepared the bath, cleaned the dishes in the dishwasher and done anything I could’ve done. Once I ran out of things to do, I felt really lonely.
I know that Yuto went to see Tsukino.
I’m sure it was a conversation I couldn’t get into—I’m sure they were talking about Tsukino’s confession.
That’s right. if Yuto ended his first love for me on that date… He would have to answer Tsukino confession, right?
My chest really hurts.
I was the one who decided to live with Yuto as a family. When I came to this house to live with Yuto as a family, I felt really happy.
That feeling hasn’t changed at all. I am truly happy to be Yuto’s family.
But if, Tsukino-chan and Yuto are dating.
I don’t want that to happen—I really hate it.
I have no right to feel that way, because I was the one who decided to live with Yuto as a family.
“…Yuto.”
I felt like I was about to cry, so I hugged my Fuwashiba tightly.
Then I heard the front door opened, I was really surprised that I almost jumped out of my skin.
I held back my tears and went to the living room where I found Yuto sitting on the sofa.
“…are you done talking with Tsukino?”
“Yeah. I’ve said everything I wanted to say. …by the way, Tsukino thanked Hinata. She thanked you for going on a date with me.”
“No problem.”
“I know I’ve been putting off my answer to Tsukino’s feelings for a long time. But even though I’ve already put my first love for Hinata to an end…”
I went rigid, as if my whole body had frozen.
“Hey, Hinata. About Tsukino’s confession—”
Stop, don’t tell me about it.
If I hear the words, ‘I have a special relationship with Tsukino—’.
“Wait, Yuto—!”
“She said she can’t go out with me just yet. …apparently I was dumped by Tsukino.”
“…eh?”
At that moment, I felt like as if I was about to collapse on the spot.
Yuto got dumped by Tsukino?
The expression on Yuto’s face as he looked at me saying he was dumped by Tsukino was more serious than I had ever seen before.
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“Did Yuto just asked me to go out with him?”
“Yeah, if it’s all right with you, I want you to go out with me.”
Weird, I didn’t feel embarrassed at all.
Perhaps it’s because I had spent so much time with Tsukino.
“I see, Yuto had put his first love for Hinata to an end.”
“I don’t think so. Maybe, my feelings for Hinata haven’t changed.”
“…eh?”
Tsukino was surprised at my words, then I explained the situation to her clearly.
“Today, after spending some special time with Hinata, I realized something. I realized that no matter what I do, I still love this girl named Hinata. I won’t be able to change my feelings for her and I can no longer fool myself about it.”
I thought that if I went on a date with Hinata one last time, I would be able to put my love for Hinata to an end without any regrets and live together with her as a true family.
But that is not how it turned out. Even now, I still find myself nervous when I am with Hinata.
But it’s only natural. Whether Hinata is my classmate, the student council president, or even my family. In the end she is the girl I have a crush on.
So as long as I am with Hinata, I’m sure this feeling will never disappear.
Whether she is my classmate, or my family, Hinata is Hinata.
“I’ve finally realized, my first love for Hinata is going to last forever, but I’m going to love her as my family from now on.”
“So Yuto is saying that he has given up on making Hinata-san his girlfriend?”
“I guess so. In short, I’ve opened my mind. If my first love can’t come true and I can’t forget it, then I want to be a family to Hinata. That’s my answer.”
“…Yuto, you look much more composed than the first time I confessed my feelings to you.”
What Tsukino said may be true. Strangely, I felt really calm.
“I have to thank Hinata-san. It’s because Hinata-san went out on a date with Yuto that his first love finally came to an end.”
Tsukino stared at me and said.
“So, you said you want to go out with me?”
“I’m not lost anymore, I’ve opened my mind. So Tsukino—will you go out with me?”
At that moment, Tsukino and I can no longer be childhood friends like we have been.
Then, Tsukino’s cherry-coloured lips slowly moved.
“I’m sorry—I can’t go out with Yuto yet.”
Eh…?
“Umm, did I hear that correctly? You just said, you can’t go out with me yet…?”
“Yup, that’s what I said. I don’t want to be your lover. I did say I like you, but I never said I wanted to go out with you.”
“——Ehh!?”
It’s true that she never said she wanted to go out with me, but she always said she wanted to have a special relationship with me.
That means, my confession to Tsukino was…!?
“I still like you, you know? But it all depends on Yuto’s feelings. I really want to go out with you, but I can’t do that just yet.”
“…it all depends on my feelings?”
“Well, it’s because Yuto said he likes me as a childhood friend… Even though Yuto is starting to see me as a girl little by little, but I can’t go out with him while he is still not sure with his own feelings.”
At that moment I immediately felt disappointed in myself, but at the same moment I found myself strangely agreeing to Tsukino’s words.
Tsukino’s words may be right.
For me, Hinata has gone from my ‘classmate’ to my ‘family’.
But Tsukino still remained the same ‘childhood friend’ for me and Tsukino wants to go out with me as a ‘girl’.
“No, but That’s why I want to go out with Tsukino.”
“…why?”
“I want to know more about Tsukino. It’s true that we are childhood friends, but if we become lovers, I might see and fall in love with Tsukino as a girl someday.”
Since that day Tsukino confessed her feelings to me, I began to treat Tsukino as a girl.
There are sides of Tsukino that even I who have been with Tsukino since I’m little didn’t know and I found myself attracted to such a girl.
“Right now, we may still be childhood friends. But it might turn into love someday—I really want you to go out with me.”
“……”
Tsukino pouted at my words.
Then she shook her head sadly.
“I’m very happy to hear those words. But I can’t answer Yuto’s feelings just yet.”
“…yet?”
“It’s because Yuto has Hinata-san. Hinata-san has just become Yuto’s family and I don’t want to ruin the relationship between them by going out with Yuto.”
It’s because she was worried about Hinata.
Because of it, she gave up the chance for us to date.
“Until Hinata-san gets used to live with Yuto, Yuto and I can’t be lovers. But I don’t want to be a childhood friend like we have always been… I want to be by your side as a girl.”
Tsukino’s shaking eyes were staring at me.
“If we do that, I hope someday Yuto will get nervous when he is with me just as he was with Hinata-san.”
“…haha.”
Tsukino has always been like a family to me. She is really precious to me.
That is why, in order to face Tsukino’s feelings, I should stay by Tsukino’s side not as her childhood friend, not as her lover, but as a boy first.
“I don’t have any right to refuse it, do I? I promised Tsukino that I’ll do whatever Tsukino asked me to do.”
“…yup, that’s right.”
Then Tsukino smiled prettily like an angel.
“Are you ready for it? Yuto is my childhood friend, my caretaker, and the person I love most in this world—I will spoil you a lot from now on.”
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“…what was that, Tsukino did that for me?”
Hinata sat down flat on the spot as if she was going to collapse.
“Hinata…?”
“…I feel really bad Tsukino can’t go out with Yuto because of me. But—but…”
Then Hinata smiled with a relived expression on her face.
“I can’t help it, I’m so relieved… We can stay just like this, we can keep our relationship just like this.”
“…yeah, I guess so. I really enjoy living together with Hinata.”
Surely this is our fresh start.
I’m going to put my first love for Hinata to an end and I’m going to live with her as a true family.
…ah, I just remembered.
If Hinata is my family, there is something I need to say to her.
It’s the first thing I always say to Hinata every time I come home to this house.
“Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you something.”
I reach out a hand to help Hinata who was sitting to get up.
“I’m home, Hinata.”
“—yeah, welcome back Yuto.”
Hinata takes my hand with a smile on her face… I think Hinata looks better when she smiles gently like this.
Hinata is the sunflower goddess, the girl I have a crush on—and my family.