After My First Love Who is My Classmate Became My Family, My Childhood Friend Became Really Sweet to Me - Chapter 30

Sleep Together?/A Childhood Friend’s Request/The Angel is Really Kind

How many times that I had told myself that it was inevitable?

It was a little past eleven, I wasn’t that sleepy but I decided to go to bed because I knew it would be hard to sleep from the beginning.

I was sleeping in the same bed as Tsukino.

We were in Tsukino’s room. Both me and Tsukino were sitting on the bed while the time goes by silently and awkwardly.

…I’ve never experience it either so I’m just speculating, but maybe that’s how a couple who just got married feels on their wedding night, the atmosphere was really awkward.

“I-I’m going to sleep now, I can’t be late tomorrow.”

“…y-yeah.”

Tsukino whose cheeks were blushing nodded. Even Tsukino seemed to be nervous sleeping with me.

Then Tsukino jumped into the bed with a plop.

“I’m ready, …come, Yuto.”

I’d prefer Tsukino didn’t say those kinds of nerve-wracking words.

After turning off the light, I got into the bed carefully and nervously, then at that moment I accidently touched Tsukino’s body.

Soft. Immediately after thinking about it, I panicked and felt really dizzy.

‘Relax, I’m just sleeping with my childhood friend…’

I kept telling it to myself over and over again, but it didn’t work at all.

Because Tsukino is the girl who confessed her feelings to me.

Ahh, fine. I’ll admit it.

Tsukino is supposed to be my childhood friend—but her warmth was making my heart beat loudly.

While I was staring at the celling and think about it, I heard a whisper from beside me.

“Yuto, are you awake?”

“…I can’t sleep. This is my first time sleeping with a girl.”

“Hmm, I see.”

“What about Tsukino? It was her idea to sleep together after all.”

“I’m so happy that I wish we can do this every night.”

Then Tsukino leaned towards me. Every time she does, her body touches mine and my body became hotter each time.

“I’m excited by the smell of Yuto, fidgety from his touch, and throbbing from his warmth. Yeah, I guess happiness is the best word to describe it.”

“…I see.”

I don’t want to misrepresent my feelings to Tsukino.

“I’ve never been this nervous with Tsukino before either. …it’s strange, isn’t it? I never imagined the day we sleep together would come.”

“…I see. I’m glad to know Yuto is also nervous.”

For me, Tsukino is like a little sister that I wanted to take care of. She is the kind of girl who isn’t good at expressing her feelings, who is carefree, and I feel like she is going to go somewhere far away if I took my eyes off of her.

We’ve known each other since we’re little, but I’m starting to see part of her that I couldn’t see when we’re childhood friends.

As an example, once Tsukino fell in love, she is so single minded about her love.

As an example, she can be so sweet to the person she likes.

It’s as if she is the complete opposite of Hinata. I got to know some part of Hinata that I don’t know before we became a family. I’m starting to know Tsukino as a girl for the first time since we stopped being childhood friends.

“Yuto is going on a date with Hinata-san tomorrow. I hope he can put his feelings for Hinata-san as his first love to an end so that they can continue live together as a true family.”

Then Tsukino anxiously said.

“But can Yuto really put his feelings for Hinata-san to an end? …won’t he fall in love with Hinata-san even more after he goes on a date with her?”

“…I don’t know the answer to it. Maybe it could even happen.”

No wonder Tsukino was worried. Tomorrow, the person she likes will go on a date with his first love.

But…

“But I know that I have to do something for Hinata. I believe that is the best I can do. If I don’t put my feelings for Hinata to an end, there is no way I can continue to live with Hinata.”

“…I’m talking about a what if situation okay? If tomorrow, Yuto spends some time with Hinata-san, and he can no longer lie about his feelings that he still loves her…”

Tsukino squeezed my arm as if to cuddle me.

“I’ll go back being a childhood friend like we’ve been before and I won’t say that I like you anymore. So you can go on a date with Hinata-san without any worries, okay?”

“…Tsukino?”

“Even if someone told me to give up my feelings, I can’t just pretend that my feelings don’t exist and move on. I’ll try to understand Yuto’s feelings no matter how hurt and sad I will be… I’ll try my best to forget my feelings for Yuto…”

After a moment of silence between us, Tsukino said.

“I wanted to go from being Yuto’s childhood friend to his girlfriend, but then I realized Yuto likes Hinata-san. So, I pretended that my feeling never exists, but I couldn’t do it, it’s too painful—it’s because I’ve liked him for a long time.”

I can’t even describe how fragile Tsukino’s words were.

But I feel like I absolutely need to accept Tsukino’s words.

“So, even if Yuto still likes Hinata-san, I won’t say anything about it. Maybe I will still like Yuto, but I will definitely keep it a secret to myself. At that time, I want us to be childhood friends like we always do. …how about it?”

“————”

Tsukino’s words were so pure and sincere… Then I turned around to face Tsukino.

The distance between us was so close that I can almost breathe on her.

Tsukino was also staring at me with a smile on her face.

“What’s wrong? You were embarrassed a while ago but you suddenly turned around.”

“Because… I want to see the look on Tsukino’s face.”

Tsukino had such a kind face.

Tsukino wasn’t trying to be strong or anything like that. She just didn’t want me to worry about her, so said she doesn’t mind if I kept liking Hinata with such a gentle smile on her face.

If that’s the case—if I don’t face her feelings properly, I don’t even deserve to be her childhood friend.

“Let me promise you this. After my date with Hinata is over, I will go and see Tsukino before anything else. At that moment… will you hear my answer to your confession which I’ve been putting off for so long?”

I said those words as I gazed into Tsukino’s beautiful eyes.

“I don’t know if I can forget my first love for Hinata, but I want Tsukino to know how I really feel. I’ll give you the answer to my relationship with Hinata, and my relationship with Tsukino as well.”

“…yeah, I’ll be waiting for it.”

When Tsukino smiled gently once more… I think about what Yarihara used to say, Tsukino really is the moon angel.

Tsukino’s smile was illuminated by the moonlight shining through the curtains, her smile was really as lovely as an angel’s.