After I Picked up a Notebook Filled With Intense Emotions, the Girls Started Acting Strange - Chapter 28.5

[April 7, 202◯]

I just started middle school, so I decided to start a diary today.

I hope I can make new friends.

[April 12, 202◯]

Everyone keeps whispering about me. It feels awful.

I still don’t have any friends.

[April 18, 202◯]

I heard them talking behind my back.

They called me a fat, ugly girl with glasses. The worst.

[April 25, 202◯]

I finally made a friend! I’m so happy!

She got angry at the others for bullying me, and they apologized.

She’s kind, cute, and someone I really look up to.

I want to do anything for her.

[May 12, 202◯]

She forgot her homework, so I let her copy mine. She was so happy!

Now we’re even closer, right?

Still, it’s strange. She’s usually so careful.

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[April 7, 202△]

Now I’m in my second year.

We’re in different classes, and that is sad, but we’re best friends, so it’s okay.

We still had lunch together. She even talked to me in the hallway.

[April 18, 202△]

I can’t fit in with my new class, but it’s fine, I have her.

But when I see her laughing and having fun with other classmates, I feel lonely.

She’s not going to throw me away, right?

[October 16, 202△]

Lately, we haven’t talked much.

Even when I message her, she rarely replies.

Does she hate me now?

[October 17, 202△]

She said she doesn’t hate me! I’m so glad!

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[April 8, 202⬜︎]

Now I’m in my third year.

We’re in the same class again. I’m so happy!

Now we can be close again, just like before!

[April 14, 202⬜︎]

Everyone in the group went out together, except me.

I almost wish we had never met.

When I asked why they didn’t invite me, she said they were going to, but I wasn’t there at the time.

That’s true, right…?

[April 17, 202⬜︎]

She said she likes a boy named Shindou-kun from S Middle School.

She said it was love at first sight!

[April 24, 202⬜︎]

My little sister was almost hit by a car, but a boy around my age saved her.

I’m so glad she’s safe.

I want to thank him, but she said she didn’t see his face. She was too shocked.

But she said his uniform had an “S” stitched on it.

The only school with that kind of uniform is around here… could it be the boy she likes?

[May 2, 202⬜︎]

The worst. The absolute worst.

It’s right before Golden Week, and it’s the worst day ever.

She invited me out after school for the first time, and I was so happy, but it was horrible.

She told me to steal a brand-name perfume as a gift for Shindou.

She said if I didn’t do it, we couldn’t be friends anymore.

I have to do it… I can’t be abandoned… I don’t want that…

I wish tomorrow would never come.

[May 3, 202⬜︎]

I don’t think I’ll ever forget what happened today.

I got caught shoplifting. The police came.

The girls who told me to do it ran away and left me there. The worst. Just the worst.

But then, a man stepped in and helped me.

He told them I was forced to do it. He said he saw me refuse at first, outside the store. He even saw me when they threatened me.

That man… I can never thank him enough.

I’ll never do something like that again.

The only sad thing is I didn’t see his face. I think he was holding a shopping bag from the nearby bookstore.

I had cried so much and couldn’t breathe properly, so my memory from that time is fuzzy.

But I still remember his voice and how he gently encouraged me.

He even lent me his handkerchief. When I looked up, he was gone.

I never got to return it.

Until the day I meet “him” again, I’ll keep it safe.

I want to wash it clean, but then his scent will disappear…

[May 4, 202⬜︎]

I can’t find my favorite charm anywhere. Did I drop it?

Anyway, I’ve decided to change myself. I want to be someone who won’t feel ashamed if I meet my savior again.

I’ll cut ties with my fake friend. I don’t care about the others.

If anyone gets in my way, I’ll kill them.

I’m not going back to school.

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[△ △, 202⬜︎]

I found out the source of his scent.

[⬜︎ ⬜︎, 202⬜︎]

I used the handkerchief today and almost lost control.

[◯ ×, 202⬜︎]

I sealed the handkerchief inside a ziplock bag, so the scent won’t fade.

Sometimes, I sprinkle it with the mix I made that smells like “him.”

Now I can enjoy it again and again.

[February 15, 202◇]

I’ve been reborn.

I worked hard on everything. Dieting, makeup, fashion.

Even my family praised me. But I still haven’t met him.

Entrance exams are coming soon.

With the handkerchief buff, I can do anything.

[April 6, 202▽]

Tomorrow, I’ll be a high school student.

Even though I stopped going to school for a while, I kept studying hard.

I practiced talking to people, too. I should be fine… probably.

It’s late, but I need to start looking for him.

I spent too much time polishing myself.

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[April 7, 202⬜︎]

Now I’m in my second year of high school. I’ve made real friends, and my life now feels completely different from back then.

But I still haven’t found him.

[April 8, 202⬜︎]

I found a notebook today.

It says Ethics on the cover… but what is this?

The inside isn’t ethics at all. It’s insane.

But… I understand it completely.

[April 10, 202⬜︎]

I felt bad reading it, but I read a little again today.

What was written felt a lot like how I feel about my savior.

I wanted to know my feelings weren’t totally strange.

The notes were from the past.

What I read today wasn’t about love for him.

It was about things he likes, his personality, and his test ranks.

It had his favorite sports and his role in club activities.

Also, who he hangs out with and his family.

Not everything, but enough to understand him.

There was more.

Records of good things “he” did and how he helped people.

Even small things, like giving up his seat on the train for an older person.

And there were things in there I already knew…

[April 11, 202⬜︎]

I read it again today. I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t stop.

What I read today shocked me.

A new person showed up in the notes.

Someone who tells other people’s good deeds as if they did them.

It seems “he” might be a victim of that.

They even wrote that jerk’s name down.

Could it be the person with the same name?

The one who messed up my life without meeting me? Could it be the classmate I saw?

[April 12, 202⬜︎]

I was curious, so I talked to him.

He seemed normal when we talked.

He talked a lot about himself and was bragging too much. But I could handle that.

If what’s written is true, I need to check it.

Maybe he’s pretending to be my savior.

[April 13, 202⬜︎]

…But it’s strange.

He smells like the same handkerchief…

For someone pretending, he knows too many details…

I have to be sure.

If he really is my savior, I’ll serve him my whole life.

If they’re not the one, I’ll just punish them.

I asked my sister for advice.

She said to use classmates.

If he’s the real one, use them to help close the gap.

If he’s a liar, use them to punish him.

My sister is a genius, even while doing other things.

Wait for me. I’ll come see him. I promise. I swear I will.

I used the handkerchief again today.

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Afterword

Compared to the first notebook, this one might feel a little less intense.

I actually struggled quite a bit with this second character.

I changed a lot from what I originally wrote.

During the rewrite, I came up with new ideas, but I couldn’t make them all fit together, so I had to give up on some parts.

Honestly, I wanted to make the connection between them even more insane.

If this ever got published as a book, I think I could rewrite it better and make it really work.

(Please let me publish it, I’m seriously begging… Hahaha.)

That said, compared to the first one, this girl is definitely the more ruthless type.

I hope you continue to enjoy my world of yandere girls!

By the way, in the last afterword I mentioned the final chapter, but I meant it as a temporary ending.

Think of it like the final chapter of volume one in a light novel.

If it ever gets published, I’ll definitely continue it.

I already have ideas for where the story goes next, and I’ll decide based on how things go at that time.

But since the Kakuyomu Contest is coming up soon, I also want to work on another story.

So that might come first, it depends.

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