A Man Who Lost Confidence, to a Gentle Chastity-Reversed World - Chapter 99

Chapter 99: When True Feelings Surface, the Atmosphere Shifts

“Right before you returned, Yuki-sama told me… to make time to spend with you, Shun-sama. Of course, I said it was too much for me…”

Yukari-san and I sat side by side on the living room sofa. Unlike Yuki, she didn’t cling to me, but just having her beside me was something I cherished deeply.

She glanced at me, slightly downward, her beauty undeniable yet approachable. Her chest, pushing against her apron, stirred the same lust I’d felt at camp.

But staring in this intimate setting was impossible, so I refocused on her words.

“…Yuki-sama said, like at her birthday, that since I became your lover, I haven’t gone on a date with you, so I should at least spend time with you at home… She should take priority over me, yet here I am…”

She lowered her head, apologetic. Truthfully, since our first night together, I hadn’t done anything lover-like with her—not just intimacy, but even dates or messaging.

Honestly, I wanted to be with someone as captivating as Yukari-san constantly, and I often recalled her alluring figure. Her being my lover felt like an unbelievable miracle.

But I was terrified of how she’d react if I made a move. If we dated and she saw my fumbling responses, her opinion of me would plummet. I was clearly overrated.

“Yukari-san, I’m sorry… I haven’t invited you out at all… I wanted to spend time with you, but I was anxious about whether it was okay to ask. I’m such a coward, I’m sorry…”

Ultimately, I feared her rejection. Despite her assurances she’d never dislike me, my lack of confidence held me back.

As I bowed, she stammered, “N-No, you’re not a coward! And saying you want to spend time with me…” before slowly sharing her feelings.

“…I know you’re kind, Shun-sama… But blaming yourself for unnecessary worries will only hurt you. If there’s anything you want, you don’t need to hold back…”

Saying, “Excuse me,” she gently clasped my left hand, her warm, soft touch enveloping me.

“To hear you say you want to talk with me… my heart’s racing. If I don’t respond well, I’m sorry, but… could you tell me about the camp…?”

Hand in hand, I replied, “O-Of course! Sorry if I’m not good at explaining…” and began recounting the camp.

Though it was fun, my storytelling was clumsy, lacking structure. I tried my best, but I could only narrate chronologically, skipping the Shina-senpai incident.

Yet Yukari-san nodded enthusiastically, listening with delight, holding my hand until the end despite my poor delivery.

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Finishing, I took a deep breath and spoke.

“…Yukari-san, thank you again. For letting me go to the camp… for indulging my selfishness.”

The joy I found there was thanks to Yuki and my lovers’ permission, something I must never forget.

“No, Shun-sama, I… I just want you to enjoy life. It’s not selfish, and having you talk beside me is my own selfishness…”

She glanced at our joined hands, letting out a “…Haa…”

“It’s normal to brush off holding hands like this… And as Yuki-sama said, I was a bit restless this morning…”

She spoke apologetically, though she had no need to.

“I knew you’d stayed out with the Sasai sisters, but that was during my days off… So a morning without you felt… lonely. Of course, dining with Kaori-sama and Yuki-sama is warm and gentle, but…”

She interjected, “I-I know it’s creepy to say, I’m sorry!” But I could never find her words creepy.

“…These past few months, especially since… we became like this… I get flustered and lightheaded whenever I’m near you, Shun-sama. Even now, talking so close feels so… happy…!”

Her words, saying she gets flustered by me, melted my heart. I couldn’t help staring at her.

Her flushed cheeks and dreamy eyes—impossible to fake—blended beauty and sensuality, captivating me. In my old world, a woman of her caliber, like an actress or idol, saying such sweet things would shatter my sense of worth.

“…Shun-sama, was I… getting carried away?”

My staring worried her, and I blurted out, “S-Sorry, I was mesmerized by how beautiful you are… Ah!”

I realized too late my words were presumptuous. Normally, being called beautiful by me would be bothersome, not flattering.

But Yukari-san didn’t get angry. Her face flushed explosively, gripping my hand tighter.

“…M-Me, beautiful…? For you to say that, Shun-sama… I…”

Pressing a hand to her cheek, she let out a cute squeal, then murmured, “R-Really… do you think someone older like me is beautiful…?”

The answer was obvious. I hesitated, unsure if I deserved to say it, but holding back now would be unworthy of calling her my lover.

“Of course! You’re so beautiful, with an amazing figure… Just looking at you makes my heart race…!”

Her sharp eyes, glossy lips, and blushing cheeks kept my heart pounding.

“And you’re my lover, even doing… intimate things with me… So I’m always…”

I didn’t know if it was okay to say, but being so close, my heart racing and head fuzzy, I couldn’t hide from her.

“I’m always… looking at your chest or hips with weird eyes… I’m sorry…!”

My lustful gazes at her breasts, visible through clothes, or her plump hips in jeans or skirts—I’d ogled and fantasized about them.

Even sugarcoated, my perverse stares were clear. I confessed my attraction and unleashed my hidden desires.

Though I’m a lustful creep, I had to show sincerity. Unaccustomed, I stared at her.

“…Ah, haa, Shun-sama, I…”

Despite my perversion, she trembled, blushing deeper.

“S-Sorry, I’m so sorry… I…”

Muttering like a mantra, she leaned closer, still holding my hand. The sofa creaked vividly, and her sideboob pressed against my shoulder through her apron.

Even through layers, the feminine softness overwhelmed me. My suppressed erection surged.

Before I could restrain it, she spoke.

“Being called beautiful by you makes my heart race… And to be looked at like that… My body feels floaty… I don’t dislike it…!”

Her firm yet kind words, her glossy eyes reflecting only me—I should be grateful, yet we were fully pressed together.

Her giant breasts, soft despite her bra, pushed against me. I could only think of lustful things.

“I’m sorry for getting so close… Your words have me so… excited… I’m shameless and creepy, please push me away if you want…!”

But she kept worrying and apologizing. Pushing her away was unthinkable.

“No way I’d do that… Your excitement is so… erotic…!”

My overly honest words made her moan, “E-Erotic…? Oh, sorry…!” as she brought her beautiful face tantalizingly close.

“Haa… I… want to be closer with you, Shun-sama… Your words make me say such clingy things… Shun-sama…”

“W-Would it be okay… to kiss you…? I’m so shameless, but… just a kiss is fine…!”

Her soft body, sweet scent—everything numbed my brain, stealing my reason. I should’ve said something to make her happy.

But all I managed was, “N-No way I’d mind!” before diving for her erotic lips, craving their softness.

“Nn! Nn, nn, fuu…!”

Her eyes widened briefly, then closed, accepting my selfish kiss. Our pressing kiss lasted until we gasped for breath, my erection now rock-hard.

“…Haa, Shun… sama…♡”

Her expression would drive any man wild. Her wet lips, glistening with my saliva, sparked possessive urges I shouldn’t have, but I needed to check her feelings.

“Yukari-san, I’m sorry, that was sudden…”

Stealing a kiss from such a captivating woman wasn’t fitting for me. I worried she’d think so.

But, slightly dazed, she said, “…N-No, don’t apologize… I…” forgiving me. Her expression seemed calmer than when she’d pleaded sweetly.

“I made a shameless request… Yet you gave me such an eager kiss. I’m the one who should apologize… And yet…”

Her gaze fell to the tent in my thin pants—my erection. It felt like a mature woman’s sultry stare.

“You’re… hard for me…?”

Her anxious yet lascivious question left me no room for polished answers.

“Y-Yes… I got excited, expecting things with you… I’m sorry for being creepy…”

Her sweet kiss and pressing breasts made me want to release. After three days without relief, I even anticipated sex, which I shouldn’t.

“Haa… It’s okay… Really, for me…?”

Her sultry gaze persisted as she spoke breathlessly.

“If you’re excited for me, Shun-sama… I’m thrilled… Your dear… penis…”

Muttering, she reached for my erection. Her soft hand gripping it through my pants drew a pathetic “Uuh” from me.

“Haa… Your hardness… for me…”

Her breathy strokes, so lascivious despite the fabric, pulled at my desire to release. I didn’t know technique, but feeling her want my penis drove me wild.

My balls felt full, my lower body tensing.

But Yukari-san, noticing something, hurriedly pulled her hand away.

“…Ah, I’m so sorry! Doing this on the sofa, forcing you… I got carried away… Haa, what should I do…?”

Snapping back, she fretted needlessly. I replied, “N-No, it’s not forced…!” chewing on her word “aroused” but needing to clarify.

“…I want you to do what you want, Yukari-san…!”

Still, I could only react passively. To my timid self, she said, “Oh… You’re really…” covering her flushed cheeks.

Then, she made a slow proposal.

“But here, you’d get tired, and it’d get dirty… So, in a place where it’s okay… My room, if that’s alright…!”

Sex in her room became clear, hardening my erection further.

“There’s a bed, if you don’t mind… Come with me…!”

No man could refuse, especially her lover. I nodded, my intent clear—I wanted to be with her endlessly, especially if she desired it.

“Haa… Th-Thank you, Shun… sama…”

Stumbling cutely, she took deep breaths and my hand again. My painfully hard erection strained against my pants.

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Her pull on my hand was slightly firm but gentle, unwavering as we reached her room.

Urging me inside, she closed the door with a bang, muttering, “O-Okay, I… need to calm down…” Her cute words were clear up close.

“If you change your mind or don’t want this, please say so anytime…”

She confirmed, but I should be the one checking. “N-No, it’s fine!” I replied. Unless she objected, I wanted to be with her.

I’d been in her room before, knowing the small bed in the corner, mainly for naps. For a non-live-in housekeeper, it was a perk from Mom.

“Y-Yes… I feel hesitant doing this in the house, Shun-sama… I can’t hold back, I’m so shameless, sorry…!”

Using her bed for sex might worry her about repercussions, but I’d take the blame.

“It’s okay… It’s my fault for getting excited. You’re not shameless, and I… want to have sex again…!”

Saying “sex” to her beside me on the bed’s edge took courage. My lust caused this, and since she responded, she shouldn’t worry.

“Y-Yes! I’m unworthy, but… I want to have sex with you, Shun-sama… Haa, thank you…!”

Unfazed, she straightened, saying, “E-Excuse my apron,” and untied it.

“If you’re excited by me… You can look at my chest anytime… I might make weird noises if touched, but if you’re okay with that…!”

Her mature breasts, soft in her white bra under a thin T-shirt, were known to me.

My raging erection was bombarded with erotic sights. Glancing at my groin, she murmured, “Then…” and reached out.

“…May I… touch you, Shun-sama…?”

Realizing we’d have sex again, I nodded slowly. Kneeling at my feet, she slid off my thin pants.

I shouldn’t let a woman like her take this position, but I accepted, consumed by excitement. My boxer-clad erection asserted itself even more.