A Love-Comedy Comes Along with Sex! ~ It Seems the Human Race Will Perish Unless I, Who has Zero Dating Experience, Use my Cheat Penis to Create a Harem and Ensure the Proliferation of Our Descendants ~ - Chapter 46: Tamada Sarina's Soliloquy

Chapter 46: Tamada Sarina’s Soliloquy

“This place should be good enough.”

This school had two main buildings: the new building and the old building. The new building was a brand new building that had been built two years ago, and classes were mainly held in the new building. The old building was hardly used because it was old and dilapidated. It had become more like a storage room. It was an old building that hadn’t been cleaned recently. At night, it would probably have a great atmosphere.

The old building was now off-limits and unused. However, the square adjacent to the old building was free to enter and exit. There were benches and tables lined up.

“Please let go of my hand quickly.”

When we arrived at the square, she said it in a voice that seemed like it might disappear. Her hands were terribly cold.

“I’m sorry. I did something without thinking.”

I sat down on the bench and took a short break. She still didn’t take off her cardigan, even though it was midsummer. I was a little sweaty because it was really hot. Although it was in the shade, it was still muggy.

“You heard everything, didn’t you?”

“Well, most of it.”

It was a matter of privacy. Normally, I shouldn’t have eavesdropped. But since I knew her secret, I wanted to help her. I couldn’t do nothing after sticking my nose in.

“Haa…”

She rolled up the sleeves of her cardigan and showed me her arms. Her arms, especially around her upper arms, were swollen and red. It was painful just to look at it.

“What’s this?”

“It’s my father’s fault. He’s a gambling addict and is in debt. It’s even a struggle to live. Even if I work a regular part-time job, the money isn’t enough. Don’t you understand?”

I wasn’t surprised. I had heard most of the story from Aizawa-san. Tamada Sarina’s father didn’t work properly and only gambled. He had even borrowed money from loan sharks. She was the only daughter, and she had no choice but to sell her body to survive. It seemed that she was working at an illegal brothel, pretending to be an adult, even though she was still a high school student.

“You aren’t saying anything.”

“I won’t say anything. Because anything I say will most likely hurt you.”

While she was still a high school student, she was earning money for her tuition and daily living expenses, and even for her father. Her physical and mental state from such a difficult life was immeasurable.

“…Having someone like me feel affection for you would only trouble you, wouldn’t it? With this tainted body of mine.”

She curled up her body and sobbed. It seemed like the tension had been released. I let her lean on my chest. She continued to cry for a while, still trying hard to suppress her voice.

* * * * *

Oh, it was another terrible day.

The dirty days repeated themselves. My body was sinking into the brothel, trapped in a debt hell from which I couldn’t escape. It was an illegal brothel where I would be allowed to do anything other than sex. I was forced to work there after being introduced by a loan shark. I got paid a certain amount of money, but most of it was used to pay off my father’s debts. The money that remained in my hands was like a drop in the ocean.

I was probably destined to be used up until my body broke down. It was a terrible life. Maybe it would be easier for me if I were to die. I had thought that many times.

But I stopped one step before that because I had someone I liked. He was a boy in the same club. He always looked unmotivated. He didn’t participate in the club activities desperately, but he wasn’t unmotivated either. He was a strange young man. He was ordinary among the ordinary. But he was different from other boys in some way.

“I never make eye contact with him.”

I had never made eye contact with him during club activities. He had no interest in me at all. I often felt the sticky sexual gaze of other boys. I was especially sensitive to the gaze of the opposite sex. I could tell right away if I was being looked at. I had become sensitive because of my profession.

And I hated those men so much that I wanted to vomit. I deliberately dressed like a gal to play the role of a strong woman. Then there would be fewer men who would try to assault me, and it would also be a deterrent. If I showed my weak self, it would become a gap for them to take advantage of.

I knew how the students around me thought of me. In fact, I was often asked to “let them do it.”

There were also things I understood because I was selling my body. A physical relationship alone was just empty. My heart didn’t beat for them at all. I had to find someone who would see my true self.

One day after practice, I had said something to Nanase.

“Nanase, you don’t look at me with strange eyes, huh?”

Nanase, who was preparing to go home hurriedly while everyone else was chatting, looked at me with no interest.

“Huh? Strange eyes? What do you mean?”

Just one word. He said that and then left the gym with his best friend immediately.

“Still confused how you can do this everyday without being sick of it~”

“That gym is really cheap.”

“And it’s open late too~”

“That’s right. So, Hiro, stay with me until the end today.”

“Oh god, give me a break on that, Kensuke.”

Oh, he probably didn’t think anything of me. No matter what I thought or did, he probably didn’t care.

But that was comforting for me. I started to become interested in him. From that day on, I started to bother him. I wanted to touch him. I wanted him to turn to me. I wanted him to be aware of me.

It was a feeling I had never had before. To be obsessed with a boy. This was…

I was in love with him.

But I couldn’t have a normal romance like a normal high school girl. I was a dirty existence that had fallen into a brothel.

There was a group of yakuza who ran a loan shark business. They were a semi-delinquent group famous in the local area. They were dirty people who would do anything for money. Yokoi Rikuto was the only son of one of the leaders of that group. He was my classmate, but he was the one who dominated me. When Yokoi found out that I was working in a brothel, he started to make various demands of me. He made me swear to give him my body in exchange for financial aid.

He couldn’t get girls, but he had money, so he could buy pleasure. I was bought by him. And I was living a meager life with the money I received. How pathetic I was.

I couldn’t show him this kind of me.

Nanase probably got a girlfriend recently. People around me were also talking about it. He had become even more handsome than before, and he had a charm as a man. I was anxious. I wanted him to somehow turn to me. But it was already too late for everything. He only found me annoying.

And today, I had no choice but to sell my body to Yokoi again.

My love, my normal life. Goodbye to everything.

I had no choice but to live like this for the rest of my life.

I thought so and yet…

“Why… Why? It’s none of your business! No matter what happens to me…”

“Shut up! Of course, it’s not none of my business! It’s impossible not to get involved when the manager of the club I’m in is in such a situation!”

He came to help me. Not only that, he overwhelmed Yokoi. He beat Yokoi so badly that it was really satisfying to watch.

He didn’t have to help me. I wanted him to abandon me.

If he did this to me, I had no choice but to fall in love with him all over again. I couldn’t help but expect something from him.

“I like you…”

I whispered that while crying in his chest.