I Kissed My Girlfriend's Little Sister - Chapter 23 (Part 3)
Chapter 23 Part 3
“Aa-Aa-Aa-! Not again, Onii-san. No. Please stop it.”
“Fuhaha! Only an idiot will stop when you say so! And take that!”
“You’re terrible! You did it twice! Aa-Aa-Aa…!”
On a monitor in split-screen mode.
The Spiny Shell I threw with pinpoint accuracy hit the right place and blew up Shigure’s bike when she was in the lead, and this turned the tide of the game in my favor.
It happened just before the finish line of the Grand Prix Finale.
Then I slipped past Shigure, who was unable to accelerate, and finished the race.
“Yosha! I win!”
“Ahn! I was so close to winning the Grand Prix…”
While crying, “It’s not fair- it’s not fair”, Shigure hits me on the shoulder in protests.
Fufu… Nothing feels better than the howling of a loser…
“In Mario-Kart, the closer you are to the finish line, the better the items you get, so don’t let your guard down until the end.”
“However, two Spiny in a row is terrible. It’s cheating. It’s horrible, so sell it right away. And then let’s buy an air conditioner with it.”
“Absolutely not. Once I sell it, I might not be able to get another one.”
It was a fair game where we had a 50-50 chance to win.
I think games are most fun when played with people of the same level.
Maybe we should change the characters this time.
And then I picked up my controller.
At the end of the day, the announcement from the disaster prevention radio overwhelmed the buzzing of the cicadas.
“Ah, sunset. It’s already this late.”
The clock was already pointing to five o’clock.
It didn’t feel like evening to me, guess I was quite absorbed in games.
“Let’s prepare for dinner.”
“What’s in the menu?”
“To be honest, I’m a little tired today. I don’t want to cook anything too lavish, but since we only had watermelon for lunch, I want to eat something greasy. Maybe it will work. How about some Somen noodles and some veg tempura to go with it?”
Oh. That sounds very summer-like, too.
Today, we tossed away our homework, took a bath, ate watermelon, and played games.
And then this seems to be the perfect way to end a summer day.
“Let me help you.”
“Then prepare the batter for the tempura. Do you know how to make it?”
“It’s written on the back of the packet.”
“Yes, But don’t mix too much. Just enough to leave a few lumps.”
“If you mix it too much, the batter will become heavy.”
“Shigure knows a lot of things…”
“However, I think Onii-san has the upper hand in outdoor cooking. That barbecue you made was delicious. I tried to make it myself. But it was impossible to get the same taste at home.
I know… I know right…
I feel rather good when Shigure compliments my cooking skills.
“I want to eat again, so when my mom comes back, let’s go camping as a family.”
“Sounds good. I’m sure my dad will join us too.”
As I took out the eggs from the refrigerator for the dough,
My phone alerted me to an incoming call.
“I’ll take care of it, don’t worry.”
At Shigure’s urging, I went to pick up my phone, which was vibrating on the living room floor.
The caller was… I knew it.
“It’s Haruka again?”
S**t. I speak out loud.
“… She called me during the bath in the afternoon.”
“Why didn’t you call back right away?”
I don’t know why.
It wasn’t anything in my mind.
Almost impulsively, I ignored Haruka’s call.
Maybe because I didn’t want to call her back at that time.
Why didn’t I want to call her back? I can only think of one reason.
“Maybe it’s because I wanted to spend some time at home with you, Shigure.”
I enjoyed the time I spent playing with Shigure without a care in the world.
Whenever I talk to Haruka, I couldn’t help but worry about what kind of expressions she’d be making on the other end of the phone.
I wondered if I was giving the proper response, whether it was my choice of words or not.
That’s why I didn’t want to be bothered by such things during our… enjoyable time.
But I didn’t want to ignore her twice.
I picked up my phone and pressed the call button.
|| “’Ah. It’s connected. Hello, Hiromichi-kun… Ah, is it evening already?”
“Good evening. Haruka. What’s up? I thought you will be busy in the club from morning to night today.”
|| “Yeah. It’s always like that these days, and I don’t get to see you very often, so I wanted to hear your voice in a while. Is it okay if I talk to you now?”
“… Okay. I’m fine with that.”
I’m sorry, Shigure. I said I’d help, but you have to take care of it for me.
I sat down on the cushion and listened to Haruka.
The content of her conversation was as trivial as she said, she just wanted to hear my voice.
She told me that she had started practicing a new play for the fall festival, that the club members went to the same ramen shop that Haruka and I had gone to before, and that the team leader was about to take off her clothes again.
Haruka loves acting. She said she was influenced by her mother who was separated from her due to the divorce— who is now my step-mother that I have yet to see.
I loved to see and hear Haruka’s enthusiasm for acting. It made her personality shine. I loved it…
It’s not that I’m not having fun.
I’m glad that Haruka called me because she wanted to hear my voice.
Since I can’t see you, at least I can hear your voice, and the fact that you want me so strongly is reassuring.
But… if that’s the case, a doubt pierced my heart…
If you love me so much, you should have trusted me a little more at the camp.
“Yeah. Yeah… You’re right. I can understand that.”
… Haruka said she was scared in case I couldn’t stop.
But it’s not something that’s going to happen in any scenario.
I can assure. I’m not an animal without reason. I care about her very much, and I have never thought of satisfying my desires while overlooking her body.
It was the same that day.
I just wanted to touch Haruka more and more, more deeply.
I just wanted to convey how much I loved her.
I never had the slightest intention to do anything terrible to Haruka.
In fact, even with Shigure, all I did was to see her as Haruka while kissing her, nothing more.
… And yet.
Haruka looked at me as someone who might do something like that.
When I think about that lack of trust, my heart hurts.
I’m not sure if you really like me, Haruka?
No matter what kind of fun topics she talks about, I always have this black sludge of doubt stuck in the back of my head.
And in order to keep that sludge out of my mind, I have to pay attention to everything I say and do, and it’s exhausting.
It’s like a job interview… I hope you’ll be satisfied soon.
That was when I was lost in thoughts.
Softly, with the gentleness of a mama bird wrapping her baby bird in its wings, I was hugged from behind.
It was Shigure who hugged me.
I looked back over my shoulder to see what she was up to, and our eyes met.
“…Just now, that was a slip of the tongue wasn’t it? Onii-san.”
My heart thumped…
It was because her expressions had completely changed from the time she was just joking around.
Her cheeks were flushed as if she had a fever, and her eyes were moist with love.
It was the same passionate look as when she kissed me.
Why all of a sudden…
… Where did I make a mistake in the first place?
As I blinked my eyes in confusion, she said to me
“I felt sorry for you, so I guess I was too nice to you. But did you already forget? Your sister is really mean, truly scary, and extremely… fond of you.”
“Do you really think I’ll let you get away after saying something cute like you wanted to spend more time with me than with her? Onii-san, you just showed your belly in front of a tiger who was watching you carefully. Your soft, white belly. You can’t complain about being eaten alive by… this tiger, can you?”
Shigure’s slender fingers crawled through my stomach.
She tickled me with her claws.
Her words were heated with excitement, but not with rational calmness.
What the h**l is she trying to do, eat me alive?
I gulped at the overly excited words.
|| “Hey! Hiromichi-kun, are you listening?”
|| “You didn’t hear me…?”
Haruka’s voice pierced the other ear.
I can’t. I was so preoccupied with Shigure that I didn’t hear her at all.
“Oh, I’m sorry, there seems to be something wrong with the signal…”
“You can’t do that. You’re on the call with your lovely girlfriend. You should focus on Nee-san’s voice. Don’t listen to your sister. She’ll get suspicious.”
Whose fault is it that…!
And, I can’t even protest.
Then Haruka says,
|| “It’s okay. And I want you to know that we don’t have club activities this weekend, so why don’t you come to my house and we can do some homework together?”
“Of course… I’ll-“
“… Your sister too had a great time today! We slacked off, didn’t study, bathed together, ate watermelon, played games, etcetera… It was an ordinary day, but it was very exciting and I was happy. So I wished, if only we could stay like this forever.”
I wished for the same, if only we could stay like this forever…
So we had the same thoughts.
I was shocked to hear that.
“I wish time would stop… With my sweet Onii-san.”
Her fingers that were tickling my neck came down to my chest.
She moved her fingers around my chest, that made almost leak out my voice.
|| “Thank God. Hiromichi-kun would you mind── I was hoping you could stay with me──── Ehehe, and for the next exam────want──────will do.”
“Hey. I wonder what will happen if I speak up here and now. I’m sure everything will turn into a mess. The relationship between you and Nee-san that you’re trying so hard to protect, the smile on her face, everything, everything.”
|| “And actually, I want to tell you ────── ──── and also ────────────, huh? it’s ────── again.”
“But that’s not a bad idea. Because lately you look really hurt. If you don’t have the courage to destroy it yourself, I can do it for you, right here and now. If you want to have a time like today, Onii-san…”
Shigure’s words whispered so close to me that she almost bit my ear.
I felt a chill run down my spine and… despair.
Haruka may find out.
She might learn about my relationship with Shigure, and what I did to her.
If that happens, my relationship with Haruka will be ruined.
If that was to happen, I might be able to free myself from the pain I feel every time I see or talk to Haruka, but… but…
“Please stop it…”
|| “────。──────？ ──────！”
“Do you hate this…?“
I don’t like it. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
I don’t know how to love or be loved anymore.
When I’m with Haruka, my mind is messed up and all I can see are the painful things.
But… I still want to be with her.
The only thing I know for sure is that I love Haruka.
I don’t want to let her go. I don’t want to lose her.
That’s why I rejected Shigure with a tone like a buzzing mosquito.
Then Shigure gently pulled herself off my back.
… and came to the front.
“Then look at me and say it. Look straight into my eyes, and tell me, do you like me? Right here, right now.”
She put both of her hands on my cheeks and forced me to look only at her…
She looks a little bit sullen though.
But if I do that, Haruka will hear me.
I can’t. I can’t…
Of all people, to make Haruka hear such words…
“It’s okay to lie. If you put it into words here and now, I’ll let it sink in. But if you don’t tell me… You never know what this beast who is excited by your unintentional comment will do!”
A glint, a savage light flickers behind her long eyelashes.
I can feel that Shigure is serious.
I was so careless.
I’m trapped, what a foolish prey…
There was only one choice left for me to make if I wanted to survive.
I looked straight in her eyes and says,
“I love you…”
|| “What? S-s-saying all of that… is really out of the blue, isn’t it? It’s surprising. But I’m happy. You said you like me. I love you too, Hiromichi-kun.”
What I said to Shigure. Haruka, who knew nothing about me, happily replied with the same words.
I felt like I was going to lose my mind over the reality of this messy situation.
|| “Oh, I’m sorry. The train has arrived. I’ve got to go.”
“O-Okay. Good luck with your club.”
|| “I’ll see you on the weekend. Let’s talk about the time later on LINE. Bye bye.”
“Yeah. Bye bye.”
That’s when I finally got off the call with Haruka.
As soon as I confirmed that, I let out a big sigh.
I’m so tired.
My heart is racing so fast that I can’t breathe well.
“Y-you-you… you really, That was too much.”
“Haha. You’re sweating a lot, aren’t you?”
“It’s not funny!”
“I wasn’t serious. I told you, didn’t I? I told you to listen to your precious girlfriend. If Onii-san was able to ignore my voice properly, nothing would have happened.”
“You’re lying! I’m pretty sure you were serious.”
“I’m not lying. It’s like when I love someone, I feel like messing with them a little.”
Shigure laughs without seeming to take responsibility.
But I didn’t have the will to condemn it.
… No, it wasn’t a lack of willpower, but it was a lack of justice.
I know that.
In the end, it’s me who’s in the middle of this troublesome situation.
Now I’m totally screwed.
I don’t know how long this will go on.
As a lover and as a brother, I wanted to grow as much as I could.
Not that long ago, I had sworn that to myself.
But now the path I’m on is too dark.
I don’t know how to move forward.
I don’t know where I’m supposed to go.
I don’t know… what I want.
No matter how many times I asked, no answer came back to me.